Journal

Hi all !

I am just sitting here and keep on thinking , "when is my husband gonna be called for a job?",  It is frightening that my sons' medication( which is working so well ) is running out really fast and my application for MEDICAID or CHIPS has been approved yet and I don't know where can we get his medication without spending a lot of money.

I already contacted an advocacy agency that will help us acquire the medicine from the manufacturer, but there is no answer yet from the Novartis.

I feel so sad and drained by all this and I don't know where to go or to ask for help.

My husband is still looking for a job and I really hope to God that he finds a job right away or we will be living on the streets.  Unemployment checks hasnt arrived yet and I dont even know if it will arrive soon and it is a very small amount that no one will be able to even live on that amount alone.

I just really feel crushed and hopeless...I feel sad for my son....I dont know....

I feel really lost and sad.

My husband lost his job.  It was so sudden.  The company have to let go off some of their employees and one of them is my husband.  My main problem now are my husbands medicine for his Bipolar Disorder and my sons' for his ADHD.

I really feel totally lost.  Here in Texas, they dont have that program that you can get free medication in your county.  Here I asked some people since I am from San Diego, CA, if they have that kind of program, and they said they havent heard that kind of program.  They said I can apply for this gold card thingy, but most people using it are the elderly.  I am really at lost.

I hope there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I hope very soon....

Lynn

Good day to all......

Yesterday, I thought it will be a good day, but it was not.  I picked up my son in school and I feel sad and frustrated from what I have learned from the teacher.  My son punched a classmate on their playground in school.  The teacher was asking my son why he did it and all my son did was just cry and be quite.  I know she really tried her best to talk to him to know his side of the story, but my son would not even look at her.  I said I am sorry to the teacher and promised to talk sense to him, which we all know for a kid with severe ADHD is very hard.

We got home and try to ask him what happened and he finally told me that his classmates would not let him play their game, and the classmate pushed him a tiny bit and for my son he tought the classmate was hurting him, so he punched the classmate.  I don't want to tell the teacher anymore what my son told me because she might just say that I am taking my sons' side of the story.

I already witnessed how some of my sons' classmates gang on him and my son was just crying and yelling.  One of the teachers stopped them and felt bad that these kids are doing it to my son.

I am hopeless and do not know what to do.  I was not there, all I can do is advise my son that if his classmates doesnt want to play with him, he just play by himself.  My sons' selfsteem is still intact and I dont know how long it will stay intact.  I just have to be there to guide him along the way.

God bless us all!!!

Lynn