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kodyjakodi 
I joined the website today because my husband has been bugging me about pulling my hair out. I definately have trich he says (he's a therapist so he can technically diagnose me, well he could if we weren't related - HAHA). I don't have it nearly as bad as lots of people do, but I do like how it feels when I am stressed out. It got a lot worse when I came off antidepressants which I was put on just to be safe when my mother killed herself about 8 years ago.
I did a bunch of reading today that said I wouldn't be able to conquer trich if I didn't get my emotional issues and stress coping under control. Yeah that's probably true, but now that I really think about it - I am probably more messed up than I like to pretend. Currently I am stressed because 6 months ago I was "let go" from the job I had for 10 years for financial reasons. I worked in the home remodeling industry and there are no jobs in my field right now. I am finding that I am either over qualified for worse... underqualified for all open possitions. My unemployment checks are running out next week, hoping i qualify for the extension. Anyway, I brought home 2/3s of our income and without my checks we are falling way behind. We don't have much savings left because our puppy got really sick last year and ended up on dialysis and it cost us over 20k. We lost her anyway but at least we can sleep well thinking we tried to save her. But now it looks like it could cost us our house.
I relocated to this area 2 years ago at the urging of my employers who when the economy slowed chose me as the first person out of 5 to let go. The first few months I was very very bitter. I was not the least productive person on staff (by far), I was not the only one without children, I had the best client satisfaction rate out of everyone etc. So why was it me? The stress of was unbearable at first. Then i found stuff to keep me busy and was almost happy for a few months. But now that unemployment is possibly going away the stress is back again. The hair pulling is back. My ulcer is bugging me again. I am grinding my teeth more than i have in year.
I am pissed off. I now live in a town 40 miles from any friends, I am very very lonely, I have no money, facing bancruptcy and I have 6 pets to take care of. My husband hates his job and resents me for being home and I have no idea what I can to do make it better.
I have a few really bad food allergies and spent many years being very sick and malnorished. I have been great for a few years on the new diets. But now I don't care about myself enough to stick to my alergy diets, its making me sicker, more irritable, anxious and depressed. I don't kwow what to do but I though maybe starting a journal here could help.
