I am currently very active in a relationship. I was born and raised in Bridgeton, NJ. I have 1 child who is about to turn 14. I am a surgical tech. I am currently thinking of moving to Canada. I have been struggling with anorexia now for about a year. It staeted with me thinking I can control it. It now has a mind of its own. As you can probably tell I am a control freak.
I am currently very active in a relationship. I was born and raised in Bridgeton, NJ. I have 1 child who is about to turn 14. I am a surgical tech. I am currently thinking of moving to Canada. I have been struggling with anorexia now for about a year. It staeted with me thinking I can control it. It now has a mind of its own. As you can probably tell I am a control freak.
My passions are traveling, and trying new things. One of my fav hobbies is a game online called Secondlife. I want to go sky diving with someone as completly terrified as I am.
My passions are traveling, and trying new things. One of my fav hobbies is a game online called Secondlife.
August 30, 2009 7:52pm
I am so lonely, and I am here with my fiancee. I am in another country, I dont know anyone here, I dont play the xbox cause there all fighting games, …
August 29, 2009 2:57pm
I have been here in Canada about 4 weeks now, and things are getting easier. Still adjusting. Its cold LOL. We don't fight nearly as much, thing …
May 22, 2009 5:47pm
Well today is the same. She is still making horriable comments. I am ready to blow on her. My only fear is I wont beable to stop. TO make matters a …
i don't want to be with my ex. he's a horrible person. i loved a wicked man. he won't change. tells me he has, tries to be my friend, but still, he makes me feel sad. just by being in my life he makes me feel sad. do i really want someone like that? no. i don't. i need to go to bigger and better things. bla. one day. i have faith. god is holding out for me. at least that is what i tell myself. even if it is delusional.
dude i am totally connecting with everything you say. i was the same way when me and my love broke up. i still think of him everytime i am with someone else. that i just want HIM to kiss me. i ALSO helped him through a nasty break up. he was in love with this girl. and was tryin to be with me to make him self feel better. obviously i couldn't take that so i bailed on him. i dunno what to do. the guy i'm with now doesn't want a relationship, but then he says he's been single long enough. and i totally agree, a man should be a good man and good enough that the walls come down slowly. i can't do it myself. i need someone to prove there is a reason why you don't always need them. i need trust. i've been so hurt, i sometimes don't think i am capable of handling another breakup like i had. i know i'll get hurt again, i'm only 22, but i try to prevent it by being heartless. :( i dunno. i'm still pretty happy with my life, just wish i could share it with someone worthwhile. even after all that bryan ("love of my life"??) and i have been through, i still have these deep feelings for him and i am so afraid they'll never go away. i am cursed.
i didn't realize you only had one journal... are you new on here????
in response to your journal comment to me, you hit it all on the head. i guess that's what i want. a "relationship" with the guarentee of no pain in the end. in order to do that, back away back away back away EVERY TIME. i've been in love with the same man for 3-4 years now. still have the same intense feelings, but... it's just not goin to work. i'm seeing someone new, and i'm liking it a lot. i'm just petrified to REALLY REALLY care. and so the walls come up. no sex either. that would DEFINITELY get me attached. you've been really hurt too? i'm goin gto read your journals.
I was diagonsed when I was 25. I have been struggling ever sence.
I have been with my Fiancee for about a year now. We recently got engaged. He was living with his ex-wife for 10 months of that, due to finacial and children. How ever she moved July 18, Because she knew I was moving in, and it was time to move on. My fiancee and her have been together for 8 years. He and I have been living together for a month, and last night he told me he misses and loves his exwife. He told me he is very much inlove with me, but he he didnt know if this was a phase
