rayne9's Journal

Hi all!  I feel as though I've been gone forever!  Sadly, my vision got so bad that I could see so very little.  Very blurry and and whitish, the pain was bad. I was in bed for 4 weeks, very scared that maybe this was it.  Friday it started to improve and now it's much better but not yet 100%.  I pray they will recover completely however I feel blessed that I can SEE.

I don't know how but I have to think my depression contributes to this.  I've started on Lexapro and it is most definetly helping.  For while all I did was cry, cry and cry.

I just knew that by now I would have figured a way out of this mess that I live but no answers yet.  Meanwhile a neighbor called Social Services Child Protection reporting that I live in squaller, my son is neglected and I'm in bed dying.  When they visited the list went on and on.  I was appalled at what was reported.  You'd think that if they were so concerned that they would visit or do SOMTHING neighborly, go figure.  They said they did not see any issues but were required to have follow-ups.  Good Grief!  Stupid hubby was like I don't care what those people think (meaning SS) it's all unfounded.  I said you'd better care as they can REMOVE Pat, so arrogant is he.  Now I hate this place more than ever!

Kris has a girlfriend, YEAH YEAH!  They are coming this weekend and there's SO much cleaning to do.  Mike has really let this place go down but he is a slob so I should have known.  Had much bigger issues to deal with such as going BLIND, now I'm cleaning.  I am so happy he's coming!

I've missed you all so much.  I'd try to go online and couldn't take it.  SO happy to be back!