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rayne9 
1:54pm Sunday
today I had to have 31 injectios done and to think I almost canceled! I should feel better soon. After the dr I went to my aunt's house, my favorite aunt the reason I moved down here aunt, to see what was going as she has not returned my calls for about 2 months. Thought maybe she was sick or something. When she finally answered the door, she was dressed very beachy, i didn't know what to think. Then the girls, Patrick's cousins came out, I was shocked!You see, Patrick loves them, they are around the same age. My aunt had promised several times in the past 2 yrs to have Pat over when they were there so they could play and all. She was dressed beachy because they were off to one of their neighbor's pool. SO MUCH FOR PATRICK!!! I stayed for a few min. telling I understood and that I would no longer be bothering her and left. So I guess that's that. I can't tell anyone, it's down right embarressing, to think that I gave up everything at the beach, including Kris, to be down here with her and my other family members, what a joke! I really felt that Dylan and Patrick needed extended family in their lives. I guess we were better off without that as it hurts more now than it could've hurt before. I made a VERY bad de cision and now I'm so stuck here, oh what to do? I seriously think Patrick will have to cont. the therapy that I put him in last yr for his depression. Dylan's good, he has many friends. I don't really care for them but at least he's not as alone as Pat. If anyone had told me this was going to happen, I would have laughed outloud NO WAY! At any rate sure as hell didn't see this coming. Somehow I know it must be in God's plan for us, but why do we have to go thru SO much hurt to see the big picture? I am SO sorry I'm here.
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You are not alone. I know how you feel. I have done the same thing over the years, thinking my family would be as happy and kind to see me as well, and then when I get there, they are distant and I don't always feel good after leaving. My own mother drops hints in a nonobvious way that I don't need to move back (to where they live) were doing so well where we are. But, I know that is not the reason.
I went on Facebook to keep in contact with her (mother) cause she lives far away, and my sister and her kids are on there and they live near her, and she only would talk to my sister's kids on there.
My daughter is out that way now, and because of the facebook thing, and I didn't do it, but they were like that before, my daughter might go and see her grandma but she'll get what I get, her talking about everyone else who is so great and she has such a wonderful relationship with.
So, no family. I've learned to ignore it, but how do you explain it to a kid, who can't understand it.
My heart goes out to you.
joely35