Day 7
June 29, 2009 11:56am
Well, gained weight...like...what is up with that? Anyway, have to go shopping for food today...also planned out what to eat and it totals up to 810. …
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Yesterday
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BeccBecc gave kmw a prayer 7:42am
I'm really worried about you. You new pics scare me. When I was as skinny as you are (and yes I was there)…
Monday
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BeccBecc updated their status 8:42pm
Isn't it funny that the past likes to sneak up and say "remember me"?…
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BeccBecc wrote a discussion post in the Eating Disorders support group: *positive* Realization 8:40pm
For some reason I decided to go look at an old webcam video that I had recorded. It was taken in June…
November 2
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BeccBecc updated their status 3:37pm
Not myself.…
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BeccBecc wrote a discussion post in the Multiple Personalities support group: Some things.... 3:37pm
Does anyone have memories of punishing themselves sexually when they were young? Back then I feared being…
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Day 6
June 28, 2009 1:41pm
No surprise that I gained weight as I binged yesterday and got up to 1790 calories...yuck.
Doing better today, a bit discouraged with this …
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Day 5 - Uh oh
June 27, 2009 9:15am
Well, I would've never expected to GAIN weight doing this. However, I'm hoping that my constipation will ease as I've taken some Exlax …
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Day 4
June 26, 2009 11:22am
Well, same weight as yesterday which is not really a bad thing, but I did want this week to be downhill. I've decided to go on this …
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Day 3
June 25, 2009 9:59am
Day 3 and my weight has gone down yet again. I have to admit I was a bit excited to see the weight go down, I had anticipated that it would have …
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KUDOS on the 1 wk! Keep up all the hard work!!!!
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I hope you are feeling better
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I really want to be 75 pds! Im at 84 now but im so disgusting. I almost throw up when I look at myself in the mirror. I just wanna be happy and look slimmer
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Support Groups
Close Brain Injury
I suffered a mild TBI in Dec. of 2005. I have since been through hell. Severe mood disorder, development of a personality disorder, self injury in the form of cutting episodes, anorexia and bulimia, social anxiety, and alot of physical symptoms. I only wish to gain support through my continued journey of recovery and to help others who also suffer.
Treatments
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have suffered from mild depressive episodes since about 13. I experienced my first severe depressive episode following a traumatic brain injury. Since then I have been in recurrent states of depressive episdoes mostly in the moderate to severe catagories.
Treatments
- Geodon Not Working
- Gave me physical anxiety and gave my hands "hot flashes".
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Wouldn't be alive without this!
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Worked to stablize mood, side effect was weight gain.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes they understand, most times they don't.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- This was horrible, horrible med! Attempted suicide because of this!
- Tramadol Working / Worked
- Even though its a painkiller it worked alot for my depression. Didnt cure it but helped space apart the depressive episodes.
Open Self-Injury
I started self harming in October of 2006. I have been through good patches and bad patches. However, I have only made it around 2 months with self harming ever since Oct. '06.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Emergency appointments helped control some urges during times of 'recovery'.
- Red Marker Somewhat Helpful
- I used to get very detailed with this, so much so that it look real and that's what I wanted. It lasted for days because I used permanent marker, sometimes it helped sometimes it triggered.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes this got triggering especially when talking to someone who had the attitude "oh I dare you to do it".
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)Ever since my traumatic brain injury I have developed Borderline Personality Disorder. I self injure, have multiple suicidal ideations, ruin relationships, all or nothing thinking, etc etc.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- This is my lifeline.
Open Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaI go through both phases of purging and non-purging bulimic. Have been eating disordered since 2006. Started regularly bingeing and starving myself in early 2007 and started purging in late 2007. Go through periods of recovery. Have swung from 160 to 112 to 150 in 2 years.
Treatments
- Dietitian Consult Somewhat Helpful
- Good for periods of recovery, if not dedicated to recovery it's pretty much useless.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- This is minimally helpful. I mean, yes, it's gotten me through some rough times but there is certainly no "miracle cure" with this.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Lifeline when depression hits. Also helps putting throughts in order and perspective.
Open Multiple Personalities
I need serious support!
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Treatments
- Counting Calories Working / Worked
- Worked and still do this.
- Eating Healthier Foods Working / Worked
- Became vegetarian!
- Eat Less Working / Worked
- It works when I can control myself.
