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dragonfyre 
2:55am, September 6, 2009
I have posted a few of my poems to a forum but it either doesn't accept it or it vanishes in a day or so. I guess that's not a good idea even though writing them seems to help me with the depression that comes with my illness and the pain.
Anyway will post my latest one down a bit so you have time to stop reading if you think you might be offended or otherwise poorly react to it.
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I need to scream, but I have no mouth
Fear fills my heart and soul
The pain fills my body, never ceasing, never ending
The blood boils within the veins, searing, burning
Never a moment’s respite, never finding peace
My limbs twitch with the unexpected onslaught
They jerk and spasm, a mind of their own
My mind grows confused, filled with the pain
The pain so bad, so unceasing regardless of what I do
My eyes glaze over, my mind doesn’t understand
I try not to show the pain, fearing what others might think
I stay silent, enduring, waiting for the end that never comes
I need to scream but I have no mouth
Comments
I feel the same way!! I have never in my life actually screamed... but this week was an exception... I spent the past two days in the hospital screaming at the top of my lungs and am actually surprised the pain didnt make me have a heart attack.
Telling someone its ok to scream, cry or have a breakdown doesnt really help much because ultimately the inner guide we have stifelling that anguish will always be there to help protect the people around us from our pain as much as possible. It sucks because there isnt a damn thing we can do about it!
But above all else I want you to know that I am here, that your strength is so very admirable , and that Im sending you all my love!!!
*hugs and love*
Cdilauri
thank you and I don't really know what to say.
Usually my poetry tends to scare people.
Thank you for understanding
dragonfyre
I think its powerful. Very descriptive of the pain experience imo. Hugs.
mianutzy