bunnydasher's Journal

I had a really bad childhood and now have a really bad life.  I have often wondered 'why me?'.  And I often wonder how is it going to be when I get to heaven.  Will I still be made fun of and rejected for being different?  Will I be a social outcast to the angles?  Will God Himself laugh at me and call me names, too?  Will my life in heaven mimic my life here on earth (abandoned, neglected, rejected, cast aside, scorned,  and abused).  I spend my days wondering 'what is love?'.  Jesus says He loves me, but....when you have never been loved, what do you have to compare that love to?