Journal

Hmm.  I have been reluctant to write in my journal.  It wears me down sometimes, but then after I always feel better having sorted through things without even realizing it.  I am trying to figure out where I am right now.  I am not where I would really like to be, but definitely not in the same place I was when I joined.  I had some blood drawn last week and I go this Thursday for the results.  There are a lot of issues for me medically I think that are bearing heavily on my inner peace.  I hope to get some answers and the medical help I need and begin a steady stride from there.  This feels so stupid.????