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Last night I dreamed of Sarah. She just walked in the room & sat down next to me on the loveseat like she always used to do. She looked so good & I remember her smiling but I
can't remember anything that we said to each other & that's breaking my heart. It's the first time & dreamed of her actually alive & talking & I can't remember any of the words. Also, I guess I've been telling myself this isn't real & she'll be here when she turns 18 or when she goes to college or gets married or has babies & today I had to admit to myself that this is real & she won't ever be back. This is not a good day.
can't remember anything that we said to each other & that's breaking my heart. It's the first time & dreamed of her actually alive & talking & I can't remember any of the words. Also, I guess I've been telling myself this isn't real & she'll be here when she turns 18 or when she goes to college or gets married or has babies & today I had to admit to myself that this is real & she won't ever be back. This is not a good day.
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I honestly don't know what to say except that I am so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you found daily strength to at least try to help get thru some of this. I have not lost a child only a parent and that was tough enough. My heart goes out to you, your son, husband and family. Life is hard enough w/out having to experience death/loss. God Bless you and please keep sharing your feelings if you can. We are all here for you, even though you don't know us...
sasshook03
I'm glad you were able to dream of her and remember her smile. Some times in the beginning it is so hard to remember the good times. This is a hard journey and a difficult path to walk, but just always try to remember those good times and that beautiful smile of hers. I'm sorry you did not have a good day, and I know how real your heartbreak is. Glad you are able to share your feelings here. Sending you a hug, Kim.
KimRW
I'm so sorry. I lost my son almost two years ago and I have never been fortunate to dream of him. I'm happy you had a dream but I'm so sorry that the reality has caused such heartache. This process is still so very new for you so please be patient and remember to journal often and reach out when you need anything. Love to you. Robin
Robin4
I completely empathize with you; cherish the dream; it was a sign - I had several dreams life-like and real about Shaun after he died. You were blessed; and I want you to believe she is still with you - I know the anguish; the pain, the never ending internal gut splitting pain, and will be here to help you, in any way possible. You will be in my prayers - all of us here - will be there for you - no matter what kind of a day you have. My best advice is to not try and hide your pain - I did - and it wasn't a good idea.
Go with your emotions - you have to feel the pain in order to heal - I'm sorry, I know it doesn't sound good - but I want to be honest - cry when you need to, scream - Heck I punched my couch night after night after night -
and I continue to love him - still, more and more each day.....
Denimari
I'm sorry for your Pain you are feeling..When my son Ryan died I prayed to God for Ryan to give me messages in my dreams.. He gave me messages from day one..but my dreams I had have only been like visions of him, almost like faint visions of him standing there or sitting..Most of the time they are visions of him being a little boy witch makes me so sad...The only words that he has said in a couple dreams was " I Love You and Miss you so so much" and another time I heard his voice yell out "ERICA" which is his sisters name (my daughter).. That message mean't to me to take care of Erica, and help her..Erica is 17 now and was having alot of problems in school, getting in trouble alot. Ryan knew all the troubles she had been going through before he died..I think I'll do more praying to God for more signs, B/C when I do sooner or later another Ryan gives me some sort of message... God Bless, Kelly
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