thebeginning's Journal

Well today I went to work and it was a better day.... my manager has validated my feelings and my Director sent me a message that was really quite lovely.  Anyway was going to go out to watch the football game tonight  (important series on), but actually now I think of it I am not really fussed on the football at all - probably just felt like a drink.  Decided against it - never feel good the next day even if I only have a couple.  My brother payed my registration for me today and I will give it back when I get payed on Wednesday.  At the beginning of the year I played around with giving up gambling and gave a few half-assed tries - At this time I entered into a debt agreement as I had five or so different bankcards/loans that were maxed out ahhh - nothing to show for it....  anyway the debt is being paid off now.  It is two years ago that my ex paid me out for our home and I spent tens of thousands of dollars in months on gambling - disgusting hey.....

Anyway with all the stress and even the feeling of not getting anywhere fast - I know I am -everyday I don't gamble.

Love to all!!