Blacklabel's Journal

well i walked in Evan's class yesterday and I didn't know it was field trip day so here are all these kids yellin and just having a ball getting ready to go and i look at Ev and say "you just wanna go home and spend the day with me?" he said "i guess mommy" so i thought i can't do this to him.

I go to his teacher and explain my extreme fear to let him go because his adjustment from outside to inside is getting worse and im afraid he will get lost from his group but she assured me and said"i promise you i will make sure your baby comes back" so i get big sissy in there and im crying and i say "gretch show him how to text and give him your phone" so i am bein brave..

i say ok Ev go and have a good time so in about an hour i get a text that looks like this..." momma  we   are   about    there  are you  ok  without   me" and i say "have fun bubby i'm fine just be careful and stay with your teacher" later i get one that says"  this   is   boring" lol then "im  on  my way   back"

i spent all day yesterday with a yucky stomach but he did it. he is different but he is strong. i have to let him try even if it scares me. i love that boy soooo much.

i don't want to hold him back but i don't want anything bad to happen to him.

where is my happy meeting place between the two???