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EmmyK 
12:45pm, November 3, 2009
Hello guys,
I wanted to update you guys on my life. Well I have had many things happen in the past weeks; some good and some pretty awful. Well I will be compeating in the Miss Tennessee Pageant this fall. Its a very high honor to get accepted into the pageant. Im very nervous. I dont have any pageant experience. I already have stage fright and get anxious pretty easily. And I have pretty awful self esstem. So I need your guys help and prayers with helping me through the pageant. I have about 3 months to prepare for everything. I really need to get in excellent shape before Oct. So Im going to need lots of support. Lots of motivation when Im lacking it. Also if anyone has been in a beauty pageant before and would like to share any advice or tips..I would be greatly appreciated Also if anybody knows any connections; any people that have experience in that area. I would be very grateful. Even if it is someone who is good with makeup and hair. Or someone who could help me with my platform (my platform is helping protect sexually abused children and giving them a voice) and getting down my interview. Or someone who is a personal trainer or nutritionist. Even if someone knows a professional photographer. I need all the help I can get. Im really motivated to win this pageant. If I win this pageant it will open new opportunities for me to become a advocate for sexually abused children. It will open new doors for me to be able to speak about how wrong sexual abuse is. I will get to be a role model for children of all ages and even adults. It will be great experience for me and for anybody who I can help. So I need you support and love.
On not as good of a note...next week I have to go to court about the order of protection I have aganist my grandfather. He will be there and I must show up for court. What my attorney wants to do is ask for a 6 month extension on the order of protection. If my grandfather doesnt just accept it and wants to fight it (and he most likley will fight it) then it would become a mini trial. What the goal is if that happens is to get me on the stand and hopefully I can make my grandfather look gulity and it would be enough corroborating evidence for them to move the case forward again. Maybe even enough for him to be arrested and have a trial a few days later. :) Hopefully that would happen but right now none of us really know. Whatever happens; I hope some kind of justice is served. And I hope that I can stay strong through the proccess. If anyone would like to know the past on what happened when I went to the police to press charges; just ask and I will tell you. But keep me in your thoughts and prayers. This will be a very hard week.
And for anybody who didnt know...my boyfriend and I are back together. We had a long talk a few days ago. I realized that we both hadnt fully commited ourselves to eachother. We both were scared of being hurt. We both hadnt fully trusted eachother. We both didnt like the way the relationship was going. But we decided it wasnt going to be that way anymore. And if for some reason it does go back to the way it was; we will break it off forever. So needless to say, after the talk we had we got back together :) I'm putting everything in the past in the past. And thats where it is staying. I know I have told some of you; some things that Glenn has done in the past. But its the past. And things have changed on both of our ends. We both trust and love eachother. And we both fully believe that we are soulmates and meant to be together forever. So I just wanted everyone to know that we are back together. And that we both are very happy :) Hopefully whatever negative thoughts any of you have; you will talk to me about. I understand this is a shock to some people. But when you love someone; nothing is going to stop you from being with that person. We both are falling in love with eachother. And he is my world. I understand the reasons for his actions in the past and I'm willing to forgive him and put that stuff in the past. Everyone makes mistakes. Its all about if you learn from them. And we both have learned. Thank you all for being here for me. And just keep us in your thoughts and prayers that we will keep growing as one and our love will only grow stronger and deeper.
Hope everyone is wonderful. If you ever need anybody to talk to I'm here for you all. :)
God Bless,
Emily
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Hey Em,
Here goes:
1. Goodluck with the pageant thing. You DO know how beautiful you are, at least subconsciously, and I got a feeling you might win. The fact that your table is fighting against child abuse is almost a sign from God. So go ahead and win but be prepared to work your ass off because the winners ALWAYS work harder than everyone else.
2. Fuck your grandfather: send that piece of shit to hell.
3. I'm happy to hear that you patched things up with your boyfriend but I gotta say: BE CAREFUl. Women that are abused in childhood have a tendency to fall into the same trap during their adult lives. I know this because I grew up with my mother. She was raped and abused as a kid so she ended up with human scum for boyfriends for the rest of her life, my father being the only notable exception. So, if he's hurting you or being an asshole, find someone else.
Night, Em
JULIAN666
Ditto JULIAN666. I have no pageant experience, I entered once but lack of hair found me out. Your pop will pay, and your bf certainly has some work to do to turn himself around, I hope for your sake that he is fair dinkum because you are special and deserve to be treated so.
BeatinBP
Good luck with everything hun... the pageant, the court case & the boyfriend. Sounds like a very busy time... im here 4u throughout it all if u ever need me... & dont 4get to keep on smiling. Mwah xxx
nocope
wow a pageant. that will be fun and interesting. being your first i guess your nervous but ofcourse u r. just do your best. and addressing the child abuse sounds good. i don't know if you can make your platform personal. well good luck. sounds good.
bipolarfolse
Thank you again for sharing your time with me in the chat room. I hope to get to know you better in the future. I am thrilled about the beauty pageant and wish I could be of help; unfortunately that is not my area of expertise. I am a good judge of beauty however, and in that regard I think you are a shoe in. Glad you and your boyfriend have sorted things out. Next week I will send a prayer into the court house and hope that justice is served. Take care of yourself.
Zeek1
Hey good luck with everything, you deserve so much happiness, wish I could help more in a practical sense but you have so much support from me, good luck with everything, you can do it, you will do great in the beauty pagent, good luck with the bf but make sure he works his cutt off to get back into your good books, smile.....xxxx
ShazzerInc
Good luck with everything you are doing. I hope you have fun in the pageant. Im sorry you are so stressed.
Love,
Kristin
loffra180
I am sooooo proud of you Emmy! i think you will kick ass at this pageant, you are so beautiful inside and out, and i love what you are doing with this opertunity.
I look up to you already.
I'l be here for you, threw everything, and you are always in my thoughts and prayers.
And i'm also glad to hear that everything worked out with your bf.
I hope we can chat soon, when everything calms down, but until then i'l be thingking and praying for you.
Love you!
ItalianChicka
why do a pageant to give sexually abused children a voice? there are plenty of other things than doing a pageant.
coldbleeder
Congratulations Emily on the pageant! I know that you will do an amazing job. You're really beautiful inside and out.
I wish you the best with court situation and will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck girl!
Also, glad things worked out between you and your bf. You seem very happy to have him back in your life and it's nice to see you happy. I just hope he can change his ways and realize just how lucky he is to have someone like you.
Overall, good luck with everything girl and keep us updated. :D
CourtneyLynn