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DreamingThin 
2:25pm, November 15, 2009
well lost 3lbs since last sunday but really wanted to see a little bigger loss, so am disappointed, only lost one of those pounds since i started my goal :(
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ok obviously i did not do this update thing correct, on june 28th i was 247 on july 1rst i was 245 and today july 5th i am at 244
DreamingThin
today went and did a little shopping as i noticed most of the stores now are trying to clear out their summer clothing and of course hardly anything fits atm. got myself 2 tops, 2 prs of shorts, a swim suit cover up and then stood there crying my eyes out as i slipped on a dress i had no business trying on BUT IT FIT!!!!! it could fit better thru the hips but then i don't want to wear the dress for another 6 weeks so i know it will look beautiful then!
DreamingThin
today spent the day moving to alcoholics out of a dear friends home, not something i would wish on my worst enemy but it had to be done and she was in no emotional state to do it. i just kept thinking God, thank YOU for the wisdom and the strength you have given me to deal with this issue, thank YOU for bringing me to the point where i am today compared to 3 yrs ago. whole day was spent on this and finally got home like 9:30 to only have the neighbors cat stuck on the very top of the house, LOL what a night, 11:45 had to go buy soy milk so i can have my shake in the morning. i did finally start taking my vitamins last night as i realized not much point in buying them, putting them on the bedside table and just looking at them, trying to lose this extra weight atm and trying my hardest to drink at least 100 ozs of water now each day. problem is i am finding i am just not hungry at all when i do this and therefore am tending to skip a meal so i really need those vitamins now. anyway, have been walking and have added some strength training into the program now and hoping i can lose at least 4-5 inches from my tummy before i leave for florida in a month, thats going to be one heck of a lot of crunches i have a feeling LOL oh well, its in my power so lets do it!!! finally weighed in at 239 this morning so thats 5 lbs lost for this week and a total now of 50lbs!!! only 80 more to go!!!!
DreamingThin
bottom line, i never learned to love me. i lost a lot of my self respect on issues from marriage to raising my children and the more self respect i lost the more i just did not care. 3 yrs ago due to issues with my kids i realized i either faced facts and made changes in myself and my attitude or lose my kids as they grew up and moved on with their lives. now all 3 are out of school and i have made those necessary changes. over the yrs i had done nothing but gain weight and got to where i did not even want to leave the house as i was so depressed, did not know the face in the mirror and hated me. then one day i suddenly realized.... i can love me, i have done an awesome job with my kids, have been a good wife, daughter and friend to others and now its time to be ME, not mom, not a wife, just me and i am happy with ME! finally i can stick to my diet and am motivated to do what i need to do to recognize that face in the mirror.
this was my reply to question posted july 12th, regarding does anyone know what led to their weight gain. i want to know i have kept it and remind myself daily so my life will continue to be MINE!!!!
DreamingThin
I'm so proud of you and all your accomplishments!!! I identify with the lack of respect and needing to learn to love myself. I've had those issues for years. I feel I'm finally in a relationship now where I can blossom and really be who I am and improve me. Praise GOD!! I'm so glad to know you and be your friend! Keep up the awesome work Sweetie!! HUGS
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