tylynsmom's Journal

I literary got stuck in the mud yesterday. I went to look for houses with my sister in law and we got stuck for 6 hours. she was embarrassed and upset and I found it funny at the end we were able to find some one that lived next door and he tried to help and got stuck and are husbands had came to get us in a little car and he helped pull the 4x4 that tried to help us out then the guy had his buddy come and get us. but I spent the day out side in the mud trying to get us out and all I can do is laugh. It seems that since I have adopted this I am going to be okay attitude things are not only working out for me but the people around me. I am calm and seem to be caming everyone else down.

That is a good thing because I have people that love me but i also have allot of people that need me right now and I am havening a hard time fining the balance. my husband actually  said to me he didn't relies he had married mother Tresa i appolagized and still left to help my friend.

I have been giving him a brake because he is taking this miscarriage hard he can't seem to look at me that long and is skittish about touching me because it is to hard and that is about the only thing that seems to be effecting me he says it is to hard. Witch is weird because this is are fourth and I am getting the harsh point of view that until i touch it it isn't real I will do every thing I can to keep it but until I hold the baby and it cries it is not real. And that seems to be driving a big wedge between us I want to try again and he is pushing me away. And wants to never discuss having kids again.