tylynsmom's Journal

I relise that we will proble be faceing many challene to come. But I hope to never be in the posision that I was in ever again how could I have known that when I set out to reach my goal of being happy the date I was trying to aim for would be so close. first off I chose aug. 29 becuse it is my anniversary I have been in bad strates for a while my first manic cycle cused me to marry my boyfriend of one moth. I am a laster I can make this work kind of person. I was and still am sick but had no idea why I have went from a normal kind harted person that at 3 explained to my mother why I was putting cany back in to the machines so thoses that couldn't aforrd it could have some to , in elementry I gave up every resese to help in the speicle ed class. To a woman that couldn't even help her self.

My husband that I cose was verey loyal only it wasn't to me it was to his family. They had me convenced together mind you becuse I was sick every thought I had was wrong, wrong , wrong how dare I help people that wasnt them how dare I say you cant talk to me that way when they would tell me how worthless I was and how dare I stand up for what I belive if it gose agianst them. Like for example she makes her down sendrem daughter clean her house to the step mothers bring in all the grosry put them away wash her step moms hair cook her own meals did I mention not let a 15 year old get in my 4 year olds face and tell her off.  I thought the man I loved would have said you can't treat my wife like that instead he bad mouth me along with them behind my back. He told the theripest he was up set that when these people did what they did to my daughter I theartened to leave with her instead of fighting him to belive her and me. I was the only one who said alisha couldn't verble abuse ty . 

Now he no longer feels that way and I feel my self retuning. I felt my power of being coming back when it was just me sayin no more you can't treat my daughter like that It took my neighbors saying you need to get your daughter help you are not crazy for me to pick up the ball and run. I now have friends agian and my daughter  is doing well with help from her t and we are moving out of state. To start over. I feel my self returning and I am ever so close to that goal.