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Hi !!!

Haven't posted in awhile - been very busy with work - I sent my Pulmonary Doctor a reminder last week - He wanted me to have another CT Scan in September - well - I think he and his office forgot about me - I had to let them know that they wanted me to have a repeat CT.   I had a phone call on my answering machine today telling me to call  them regarding my authorization.  That is all the nurse said.  Guess it means that they got the authorization to do a repeat CT on me.  Now I am nervous, anxious and thinking that I am scared!  I have scattered nodules  2 - 7 mm which probably means I am not dying - but oh well.... my brain still tells me to worry....... This is all driving me crazy - once we have a CT Scan and it shows nodules - they the curiousity begins!!! Is it or isn't it cancer?

Probably isn't but that doesn't mean that I am not totally scared of the results - I need to call the facility when I make an appointment and find out how long before my doctor has the results or better yet - can they make me a CD to go right over to see my doctor after the test!  Now you see what I mean - I am totally paranoid!

Thank you my friends for taking the time to read this.  I love you all......Julie :)

Good morning -  Hubby made me breakfast this morning - 2 eggs over easy - 2 patties of sausage - sliced tomato and pita bread.  It was so much could eat all of the sausage. 

Getting ready to go to poker again - seems I have been going to the Texas HoldEm tournaments every Sunday.  There were only 30 something people left last week before I got knocked out.  Well - let's see what happens today, LOL.

Been feeling OK these days - just my next CT Scan keeps coming up over and over again in my mind.  I guess better to know - I would of never been able to quit smoking without the CT Scan results.  I have been trying for over 3 years to quit to no avail.  It will be 3 months soon since I last smoked and I do notice I can take a deeper breath now. 

What is that saying "We reap what we sow" so I guess my emphysema is my fault for smoking.  Wish I would of known better.  But at least I'm not smoking now.

Let's see if I can be a winner in the poker tournament today - or per the usual get knocked out. :)

Just got back from the pulmonary doctor.  I had a CT Scan which showed emphysema ... had a spirometry done - which was NORMAL --- had me walk around the building a few times with this thing on my finger that measured my saturation and my pulse - it came out NORMAL.  Go figure - how could that be - when my CT Scan shows emphysema.  

Can anyone please explain this to me. please.