passion2write's Journal

We were suposed to go to my mom;s house for 2 weeks while my husband did the National Guard, but he ended up with 2 hernia's and had to get surgery. We ended up staying another week. It was pure hell. My poor mommy (Bless her heart) has MS.  She has always been mean though and I grew up in hell with my parents. It's a long story but we did nothing but argue daily. She was very mean and just always nagged about everything. She made us do all the chores. I have an older sister and younger brother so I was the middle child. I was the black sheep and still am. Even though I am doing better than the both of them now, I still am the bad one. But anyhow, she would lie to everyone and tell them I lay around all day and watch TV and don't do any housework. She would tell everyone that I was so mean to her and just a bunch of lies. It was crazy. My father was a raging holic. He was always angry. He was a Marine which usually speaks for itself. But, when he would yell at us, my mom would have to shut the windows. It was all so embarrasing. I hated my home life so much that I ran away twice. I actually tried to kill my mother. Won't get into that, but it was that bad. I just couldn't take it anymore. It was hell. To understand it, you would have to stay there a few days.  Nobody ever really believed  that it was as bad as I said it was.  

 Well, being married to my husband for 15 yrs., he knew how they were. He knew how crazy it was there but just being there this past month made him actually see a lot more. She has gotton progressively worse with the MS and some dementia. But it seems to amplify her natural personality. I mean she lies and makes stuff up. She claims that we all steal from her and she says that my kids steal from her. I'm not sure if that is from the MS or not but I'm told it is. It' just so frustrating because she steals from me. She will take my brush, make-up anything she can. I just can't handle this. She is always on my kids. She nags them and always says they are going to break something. She says no, don't touch that cause you might break it. She was like that when I was a child. She would flip out if we broke something of hers. But, she calls my dad like every 5 min. She is in bed all day and can walk but not good. She usually falls and refuses to use her walker. But she drives my poor daddy crazy also. She is always calling us to show us something on QVC. She is so addicted to buying stuff from there. But, wow, it was pure torture there. So much went on and now I don't have time to finish. 

 I also got into an argument with my sister. Long story but found out she is using and my brother is also. I am an addict as well but wow, it all made me so want to go out and have a few drinks! I am going crazy without my pills and alcohol. I will write more later but I have to go.