ItsNotJustME's Journal

Yesterday I was diagnosed with bipolar. After alot of research, a new med, and alot of sleep I'm feeling more hopeful. My mind is still racing until odd hours of the morning, but I actually slept well for the first time in weeks.

My animals suffered somewhat today. I didnt spend much time with them. I decided that they can go a day without being let out, taking the dogs for a walk, etc. They had the necessities, got checked on twice, and did the bare minimum. The meds I think are making me dizzy, so i couldnt physically do anything with them. I know they can sense so much and I dont feel too guilty about taking a sick day from the world.

My girlfriend upset me today. I have baby bunnies at my house and she wanted to know if i took pictures of them today, and I told her no. I was dizzy and didnt feel like doing anything today. I asked her "what did you want to do have me take pictures of them when i couldnt hardly stand up?" she said "yes, yes I did. I want to get pictures of the different stages and stuff so take the pictures of them before they change again!" I understand that she wants pictures since she lives about 2 hours away from here, but i couldnt physically do anything today. I felt like she disregarded the fact that I wasnt feeling well and didnt feel able to take the pictures today.

We got a whole 15 mins on the phone today. We never talk for that little of time. I think instead of asking me how i was actually doing she just wanted to leave. She has problems with dealing and coping with problems. She is very book smart and seems to think she has to have all the answers. She is working through this, but sometimes her reactions and the way she says things really upset me. I wasnt in the mood tonight to tell her "I feel like  you disregarded the fact that im sick" tonight. It just wasnt worth it to me. I decided I am going to sleep on it and talk to her another time.

Anyway, its time to get off of here for a while.