Journal

Today has been way too much drama and sadness for one to handle. I am currently going through a rape case and am not disclosing much information to anyone, and found out one of the five people that knows has been talking about it to other people. It really upset me. I am not a "drama" queen, in fact i hate drama and everything to do with drama. Its just not me. So, i confronted the girl and just told her "Please do not share personal information with people without my permission. thanks." so her reply was that I am being childish. Give me a break. I thought it was a pretty bold statement, especially for her, to be pointing the finger.

Also, monday I called my vets office because I had a sick ferret. They did not fit me in, and the ferret died today. I know how to do just about everything out of home, but on ferrets its hard to give them Sub-Q's without help. So more or less my poor ferret died because of lack of medical attention. I am very upset about his death, but I am also EXTREMELY mad at my vets office for not fitting me in. This has been an ongoing problem, and i'm done dealing with it. I am going in tomorrow to talk about the lack of customer service I have recieved, and also share my concerns about them seeing new patients before they see their loyal customers. I will bitch them out, but I will do it with class.

Yesterday i took my dogs to the dog park here. I had a wonderful time, and they did too. I enjoyed just getting out of the house into an open space and walk my dogs.

Last night when I was getting ready for bed i seriously thought something was crawling all over me. I was getting freaked out and almost took my anxiety meds because i seriously thought that i was going insane. Well finally i just ignored it and went to sleep.

Later on, at like 5am i woke up and shot up out of bed, still asleep i grabbed the back of my head, pulled off a tick, and took it to the bathroom and flushed it. It was so gross. I got up this morning and washed my body head to toe and washed my hair like five times. It was so gross.

I still felt dirty all day today. With the rape case being out there, mork dying, a friends horse dying, being angry at the vets, wanting to talk to my gf, and the raining and overcast day it really got me down for most of the day.

I was still happy while i did my job, at work im just a robot honestly... I could deal with the customers and ask them the same questions, talk about the same things, and call it a day. lol. Its lovely being a cashier. Not saying im a robot to everyone or that you should expect the same questions going through a line at a store by all means....

My gf and I actually got to talk on the phone for more than 15 mins tonight. That was really nice to take a break from the world and just talk to her. She always has this eerie way of making my stress and being down disappear.

Its officially Wednesday. I hope today brings more happiness and less stress than yesterday. RIP Mork, you will be very much missed and you were special to me.