innerdialogue's Journal

so, it's my boyfriend's last holiday-weekend.. we invited some friends over..

 we had quite a lot to drink...it was really fun, we all enjoyed ourselves

but then...

our friends went home, and we were home alone..nice^^.. you'd think.

but in a matter of 10 minutes, we had gotten into a REALLY big fight, about things that are even too stupid to mention..

so here we were, trying to calm eachother down, but only making things worse by doing so..

next thing we know, we were both ready to kick eachother out of the house. we have a half glass frontdoor. so i pushed my boyfriend to the door and held out my hand to open it. but a vase full of water had fell on the floor, and it had gotten all wet.. so we slipped. and FELL THROUGH THE DOOR!! luckily my boyfriend was just extremely pissed, because he thought i pushed him on perpose. for all i know he would have been dead because of a shard in his back or something.. so i lifted him up, and got to see my own arm 

i'll post a picture of it...it's pretty shocking though..

so now, the door was open.. and the cats could run away(we don't let them outside, because it's too dangerous and waaay too high up)

but i was bleeding heavily, so i grabbed a bandage, and immeadiately ran to my father, who lives just a couple streets away. i yelled to my bf to get the cats in a closed room, but he was in a state of shock... it was a bless that nothing happened to those poor dears, i couldn't forgive myself, if because of this stupid action something would have happened..

so, got to my father's place.. no-one there^%$#*^

in that same street, one of our friends who visited earier lives, so i ran to him. he opened..

but, he had no car.. so i said, go with me to my home. went out for nothing..

came home again.. another friend already had returned and was sitting with my bf. thank god my bf had cooled down a little..

so, i took the cats, put them in a proper room with food, water, toilet, sleepseats...

remember i was still bleeding very intense.. but i had to do this, especially because my bf couldn't, and i was about to leave the home for emergency treatment..

i had phoned two of our other friends of that evening, and they were on their way here..

and so was a cab..

gotten in the emergency dept., we had to wait in a room, while they pre-sterillised my wound..

oddly enough i was so stressed up that i was really laughing about it, as my whole world was actually collapsing, with my bf ready to leave me can't stand that thought!!!

i was laughing one moment, and crying the next.. DOh, due to my dissociation problems..

for a brief moment i even forgot what had happened...??

i eventually got over 30 stitches, and another big wound was glued.

in my left hand,, and i'm a lefty, very frustrating this whole story...

we were in the emergency dept. for more than 2 hours, and it was sometimes very painful what they did to me, sterillising, sedating..

but, with the house a little cleaned up, and our minds a little sober again when i came back (which was the next morning, didn't get any sleep) my bf and i realized it was all a big nasty misunderstanding, that took a very bloody turn..

meanwhile, my mother was picking me up, because today is mothersday, and she was also here, we had called the glasscompany to get us a new frontdoorwindow asap, because the cats were still in this tiny room without us around. luckily this great guy came within 45 minutes, and replaced our window^^ JOY^^ . thanks to a great good friend we could pay the man, and all had turned out well.. exept for my arm ofcourse.. it's just starting to really hurt now!

woow man, what a night, still can't believe it actually happened!

can only hope, no KNOW, that this will never ever happen again!!

and i'm very very glad nothing had happened to my cats or bf...