Journal Entry for October 29, 2009
October 29, 2009 9:14am
okay.i know how hard it appearantly is to live with a multiple. i can imagine too. thinking you know a person, who becomes completely different all …
innerdialogue
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About Me
innerdialogue
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About Me
in a relationship for 4 years, of which 2 of them living together, with our 4 beautiful cats... we're not really married, but we live like we are.. about me... i dont know, , its too much at once, or nothing at all in my head, when i try to think about what defines me.
in a relationship for 4 years, of which 2 of them living together, with our 4 beautiful cats... we're not really married, but we live like we are.. about me... i dont know, , its too much at once, or nothing at all in my head, when i try to think about what defines me.
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Interests
animals, nature, psychology, philosophy, religion, spirituality, exploring our mind, feelings, music. computers, games, forum, star trek, tv, sports, therapy (yes i like my therapy, it keeps me busy). good food, theatre, art, relationship, friends, babies, educational things. i kinda like everything i guess.
animals, nature, psychology, philosophy, religion, spirituality, exploring our mind, feelings, music.
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Recent Activity
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innerdialogue updated their status 9:37am
"things are going very wrong on my inside"…
November 3
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innerdialogue joined the Anxiety support group 11:31am
fear controlls my life. almost every inner has fear. not all of them. but they can still hear the fear…
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innerdialogue joined the Self-Injury support group 11:21am
i do not pick up a knife and cut myself. but my alters ruin my life so to say. so because i am just one…
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innerdialogue joined the Separation Anxiety support group 11:10am
i get veryvery homesick, also to my past. and i have strong separation anxiety towards my bf.…
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innerdialogue joined the Physical & Emotional Abuse support group 9:51am
my parents were alcoholists, and they didnt have time to raise me. at first i lived with my grandparents…
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gave up again.
October 27, 2009 10:45am
okay.
so, 2 of me are seriously addicted to weed.
another part hates it, and the littles dont even know.
i cant stop! i just cant! it drives me crazy …
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Journal Entry for June 16, 2009
June 16, 2009 4:27am
i'm still sober yes :D i've had one weak moment but i can controll myself very well so far..
xxx ama
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update...
June 4, 2009 5:04am
so..
long time no write...
but now i feel it's necessary again..
i've had my testresults from both my kidneys and my psychological …
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wooow last night...
May 10, 2009 3:41pm
so, it's my boyfriend's last holiday-weekend.. we invited some friends over..
we had quite a lot to drink...it was really fun, we all …
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Support Groups
Close Multiple Personalities
hi. i've been in therapy for almost a year now. i know i have mpd, even though it's not diagnosed yet
Treatments
- Seroquel Too Soon to Tell
- i would like to know if some of you had some good experiences with it. ive had 200mg a day. but i stopped almost a week ago without consulting my therapist.
Close Fibromyalgia
doctor said i have fybromialgia. so i d like to learn more about it than the standard sites tell me.
Open Paranoia
cause i have a paranoid alter
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
my parents were alcoholists, and they didnt have time to raise me. at first i lived with my grandparents from when i was 2, and when i turned 6, i got to go back to that disorganised family. my mother is bipolar. a lot has happened
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- but im not that much of a creative person. if i were it would help more.
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- my relationship with my mother is better then it would have been if i couldnt be able to forgive her. she cant help herself.
- Group Therapy Considering
- i cant properly keep up with therapy cause of my other alters, and cause of fybromialgia
- Music Not Working
- it only brings my feelings out more, sometimes lets me relive it
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- i now have a new therapist, again... maybe he will help me more then the ones before.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Separation Anxiety
i get veryvery homesick, also to my past. and i have strong separation anxiety towards my bf.
Treatments
- Music Not Working
- makes it worse. brings up old or forgotten feelings. but still i like music.
- Pets Working / Worked
- if my bf should be gone, i'll always have them. although they bring worries too.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- im considering to tell them at therapy how i feel about leaving and my bf.
Open Self-Injury
i do not pick up a knife and cut myself. but my alters ruin my life so to say. so because i am just one body, i injure myself psychologically. i am addicted to piercings.
Treatments
Open Anxiety
fear controlls my life. almost every inner has fear. not all of them. but they can still hear the fear of those who are afraid.
Treatments
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- but i dont think of it when im in panic. when its not too bad it helps.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- when i get paranoid before i go to sleep, i meditate. it brings me to sleep.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- the ones that dont fear always think happy:D
