Journal Entry for November 17, 2009
i think i wanted him to be meaner to me because he wasnt. he wasnt and it makes me feel like i said yes, i wonder if i just made him out to be mean …
I'm still here because I don't want anyone to think I don't love them enough to try"
I'm still here because I don't want anyone to think I don't love them enough to try"
french/ italian cinema. music, a lot of metal.
french/ italian cinema. music, a lot of metal.
i think i wanted him to be meaner to me because he wasnt. he wasnt and it makes me feel like i said yes, i wonder if i just made him out to be mean …
im going to the doctors tomorrow, and to student services. hopefully this will make it better.
i cant stand myself. dont tell me not to cut because nothing imakes this go away and i feel like if i dont get it out im gonna hang myself because …
i dont know what else to say except that i keep thinking of ending everything.
i can't explain how angry i am. nothing's gone down, i'm just home from uni. i can feel it pulsing through me, i'm hot, my fists get …