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MissZee 
12:32pm, August 24, 2009
Well I tried to be calm and positive for my procedure and I was.
But did that good karma come back in return no. It did not. Now I sit here and wait for a week for results on something they saw in the procedure. I feel like I am sinking into depression. I can't sleep well, I've lost my appetite and I've lost an interest in anything in life.
I'm petrified of losing my job, my husband and my family through this mess I am going through. I don't know what to do.
I wish I could say I was doing better. But the panic attacks have led into hypochondria. And the stress from these things have led to acid reflux and high blood pressure.
I still go to my therapist and hope soon that I will start turning around for good.
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Going for an endoscopy this Friday for my reflux. I can't lie and say I'm not nervous as heck. But I am trying to keep my anxiety under control and not let my mind go to worst case scenario. I am trying to consider that knowledge is power and the sooner I get this done, the sooner I know how to get this under control.
MissZee
2 days until the endoscopy. Still trying to stay as centered and as positive as I can be. But with a history or worrying and thinking worst case scenario this is going to be a tough one Trying to keep the big girl panties on through this and think about the good things planned afterwards.
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