A new Poem
October 22, 2009 2:43pm
Alice go into the late night pondering, follow the rabbit down the hole
See what hidden secrets are kept in tiny chests …
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About Me
theloveisgone
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About Me
I was diagnosed with a variety of mental disorders stating when I had a mental breakdown at the age of 13. At first they thought I had depression, then bi-polar disorder, then it was schizophrenia. I was put on every med from A-Z and 5150ed more than 20 times. During that time the medication made me go from a small framed 125lbs to my biggest 280lbs. My life took a horrible turn when my boyfriend of 2 years dumped me. I was then put into residential treatment centers for 3 years. I saw girls kill themselves and lost hope of surviving. When i was finally released i couldn't deal with the freedom so i started doing drugs and sleeping with anyone and everyone. I have come along way since then and now I work for the city and go to community college. I have a new boyfriend who is very supportive and i love him very much. I still don't really know what kind of disorder I have but i know i suffer from PTSD. I struggle with my weight and i think i may have body dimorphic disorder. I see a therapist weekly and i truly think it is the most helpful tool for me.
I was diagnosed with a variety of mental disorders stating when I had a mental breakdown at the age of 13. At first they thought I had depression, then bi-polar disorder, then it was schizophrenia. I was put on every med from A-Z and 5150ed more than 20 times. During that time the medication made me go from a small framed 125lbs to my biggest 280lbs. My life took a horrible turn when my boyfriend of 2 years dumped me. I was then put into residential treatment centers for 3 years. I saw girls kill
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Music, Art, Movies, Animals, and School
Music, Art, Movies, Animals, and School
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November 8
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theloveisgone asked for advice: Seratonin Syndrome in the Bipolar Disorder support group 10:52pm
I took a whole lot of zoloft.... 1400mg to be exact! Will this kill me? I just took it. I was really…
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theloveisgone changed their mood to Good 1:33pm
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My Life in Zoloft Decay
September 20, 2009 6:59pm
All Gone, My focus remains static.A loud shill of dicontent.Give me Peace, Give me Silence! Not this silence...Not this static(the silence of …
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NO GOOD
September 20, 2009 3:21pm
What is up with this.... okay so i started my period and maybe that has something to do with this. Plus I read that on Zoloft you can gain …
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I’m With You
Take you meds and stay with us. The world is a better place with you in it...really!!
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thankyou, that is something i will ask my therpist about, he is very educated, and kind, i do want to get better. i have been under terriable depression, i never experinced before. and anxiety. you do look like my cousin, the resemblance is uncanny. she is beautiful, i don't see her any more. i want to move to california, this weather is dreadful, i miss the mild winters. i hate the coldness. i hope we can be friends. i have a daughter who is 13, she is very smart and has a beautiful soul. she is also very beautiful, i need to get better for her. do yu like where you live?
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How are you? sounds like you have a lot going, just wanted to sauy hi and just add my support, im Shaz...HUGS....
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love your pictures, what is dbt? i have bad anixty, esp around new people, or jobs, etc. you look alot like my cousin, who lives in new himshire, she is very beautiful, i am not a guy or gay, i am just saying that you have a very beautiful face. anyways, i hope you are okay.
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Support Groups
Close Insomnia
Treatments
- Ambien Not Working
- made me hallucinate...never taking that again!
- Ativan Working / Worked
- Oh I love my klonopin!
- Counting Sheep Not Working
- this has never helped!
- Lavender Working / Worked
- soothing
- Meditation Considering
- I wish this would happen!
- Music Working / Worked
- sometimes...not tonight
- Passion Flower Not Working
- nope
- Reading Working / Worked
- Restoril Not Working
- YUCKY!!!
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- I built up a tolerance years ago
- Valerian Not Working
- nope...does not work
Close Anxiety
Treatments
- Acupuncture Working / Worked
- I wish i could afford it
- Ativan Working / Worked
- bad... made me think zombies were real!
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- just breath
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- i would die without this drug!
Open Eating Disorders
see journal
Open Sexually Transmitted Diseases - Female
Type: Genital HerpesI have had herpes for 4 years... it's been rough but I have a loving boyfriend who supports me no matter what
Treatments
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
I live on an island...end of story!
Open Loneliness
i feel lonely a lot!
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI suffer from depression regularly
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- i know i should do more of this... it really does help
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- For awhile I was doing really great with this... sometimes it's really hard
- Prozac Not Working
- made my too twitchy
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- BEST THING EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Seroquel Not Working
- just made me feel sick
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I don't know how i would do it without them
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- it worked at first and then my body became way to tolerant
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- gave me seziures
- Writing Working / Worked
- This is so helpful to vent!
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- OMG... Working well... currently taking this one
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- helps with bad moods and low energy
Open Female Sexual Issues
I am experiencing anorgasmia because of medicine
