Journal Entry for May 13, 2009
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Ames105
10:36pm, September 19, 2009
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About Me
Ames105
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About Me
"A hurt body and mind aren't just like a dictatorship, they ARE a dictatorship. There is no tyrant as merciless as pain, no despot so cruel as confusion." Stephen King - Duma Key ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm 27 years old. I'm alone, for the most part. I struggle every day to be something that someone can be proud of. To be good enough. To be pretty enough. I'm never enough. Someone who has someone who wants to acknowledge me to the world. I'm just not good enough. I have a degree in Theatre and a minor in English. I have Fibromyalgia, which basically means I am in pain and fatigued 24/7, and Compressed vertebrae in my neck.
"A hurt body and mind aren't just like a dictatorship, they ARE a dictatorship. There is no tyrant as merciless as pain, no despot so cruel as confusion." Stephen King - Duma Key ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm 27 years old. I'm alone, for the most part. I struggle every day to be something that someone can be proud of. To be good enough. To be pretty enough. I'm never enough. Someone who has someone who wants to acknowledge me to the world. I'm just not good enough. I have a degree in
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Theatre makes me very happy, but since I am physically limited as to what I can do; no more of that. Reading. Writing. Cooking. Tattoos.
Theatre makes me very happy, but since I am physically limited as to what I can do; no more of that.
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A Larger Peek
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A Peek Inside my Life
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a lack of worth
April 4, 2009 12:42am
All I have wanted all of my life, is for a man to love me. I've dreamed about it since I was five years old. This is basic, right? I'm not …
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It's been way too long and I'm sorry - but here's a hug just to let you know someone's thinking about you...
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Hope these make you feel a little better. Terry
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Pray all is well. Have a very blessed week. Aron
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hey. thank u. I must say that you have really beautiful eyes.
Why do u want to fix yourself?
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Close Fibromyalgia
Been diagnosed for a year now.
Treatments
- Aqua Therapy Working / Worked
- Cyclobenzaprine Working / Worked
- Darvon Working / Worked
- Heat Working / Worked
- Ultram Working / Worked
- My everyday go-to guy. I love it.
Close Turner Syndrome
DXed at age 20. Been on HRT for 7 years now. I'm 4'11".
Open Chronic Pain
I have Fibromyalgia.
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- Heat Working / Worked
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- Lidoderm Working / Worked
- Lyrica Working / Worked
- Is of the Devil.
- Naproxen Working / Worked
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
- TENS Working / Worked
Open Anxiety
Have dealt with anxiety all of my life, which I believe has caused my Fobromyalgia.
Treatments
Open Healthy Relationships
Was in a very unhealthy relationship for almost four years.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- It was amazing how many people flocked to my side after the breakup happened. For the first few days, people treated it like a wake. . .then after that, everyone started with the "you were too good for him anyway" business. I really found out who my friends were, and was amazed at how many I had.
- Writing Not Working
- Very cathartic in general, but not for this situation.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- I pretty much had to be in a sedated state for the first bit. It helped numb me a bit and allowed me to function.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- About two weeks after the breakup I started having severe pain which was diagnosed as Fibromyalgia about nine months later. The mental stress brought it on. . .now its a life sentence even though my head and my heart are over the broken relationship.
Open Myofascial Pain Syndrome
Ames105 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Loneliness
Dealing with a lot right now. I never feel like I'm good enough, and I never feel good about myself.
Open Plastic Surgery
Ames105 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Jealousy
I'm never good enough, therefore, always jealous.
Open Sciatica
Ames105 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
Ames105 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Breakups & Divorce
My live in fiancee left. It's been almost three years. I'm mentally over it by far, but the whole experience pretty much broke down my body.
Treatments
- Pets Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- Time Working / Worked
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I'm 27, almost 28. Smoker since I was 14. Have stopped before, but always have picked the habit back up. Now I have better reasons for stopping. So, here goes. . .
Treatments
- Hard Candy Working / Worked
- Works well for the hand to mouth part of the habit.
- Nicotine Patch Working / Worked
- Used these before. They work when you are strong enough to stay smoke-free when the series of patches is over. The only side effect I have experienced is some wicked nightmares.
