Trensota's Journal

I must apologize to all my friends, I have neglected you for way too long.  I've been enjoying something approaching normalcy for the first time in a couple of years, and I became wrapped up in playing catch up with all the (other) things I've neglected for so long.  I do have some interesting questions to raise, like the way that it seemed to me that I went from living life in the third person, to suddenly shifting to first person. 

That is, while I was feeling so sub-normal, I could talk endlessly about my problems and challenges, and possible solutions, etc.  But as far as actually doing anything, I felt sort of frozen, in suspended animation.  Then, I began to have no need, and no time, to talk about my life, because I was too busy living it.  My progress in addressing my problems has been only slight, yet inside my head, the difference is enormous.  I'm myself again, back inside my own skin.

This brings up several questions for me, like, am I really myself again?  Who is the real me, and who am I when I am not that person?  Is progress that I make inside my head actually progress at all?  Or am I deluding myself?  Maybe I'm just as unwell as I was before, but in a happier way...

These must be fairly common questions for my fellow beepers, and presently I will post in group discussion and ask for responses...