supermalv's Journal

i've been feeling better these couple of days. i think i know where it all goes wrong.

i've been resting all my hope into my future. chasing my dreams. living the life. shit like that. thinking, that one day if i get them, i'll be happy.

maybe this is where faith is needed after all. it's not that those successes will make me feel good again. but i have to feel good in order to be successfull. that feeling doesn't come outside. externally. but from the inside pouring out.

i've been desperately trying to do all i can do to be productive. and that's the number one rule in life we shouldn't do. when we're desperate for something, and doing what we do desperately, then the result could never be good.

so i'm gonna take my time feeling okay again. ready again. mentally. because mentality is as important as actions we take when trying to reach for a goal. no i think it's more important. everybody knows this deep down. when we conquer ourselves. everything else goes with it...