supermalv's Journal

it's 9.25 and i have a throbbing head ache. i don't feel good at all. oh i just saw batman the dark knight btw. heath ledger is pretty awesome in there. mm watching it makes my head ache worse. the screen is so small. when i try to maximize the window, this pop up ad thing keeps showing up.

anyways, lately i've been sinking deeper and deeper into my depression again. it's not a fun world to be living in. thinking about my life makes me confused. not thinking about it makes me feel like shit. because i know where it is going eventually. if i keep living day to day just like this.

in the sea below mediocrity. having nothing to live for. or look forward to. no emotion whatsoever. care about nothing. not being cared about either in return.

i hope this is just the headache. why am i saying such pathetic things like these..

i can't expect life to be easy. this pain will pass. if i just keep pressing forward and weather the storm, then hapiness is but an eventuality. i just have to keep being strong. i have to endure. nothing confusing. nothing complicated. just simply enduring this pain.  this will pass. this nothingness will pass. and that little something will return. my spark of life. just have to be strong... just have to be strong...