supermalv's Journal

well i finally finish that tv cabinet. and still that thing don't look as good as it could be. my fault for rushing the cuts.

it didn't look too bad. but considering my sacrifices i made for it. financially and otherwise, it really didn't live up to the expectation. i didn't meet my own expectation. after such long researches and times and effort.

but hey. i never expect this to be easy. if it is, every furniture maker would be out of fucking business. this life isn't a walk in the park. it may take me years and years of practice until i can make what i want to make.

hell, it doesn't matter. i don't have much to live for anyway. no sense of pleasure. no sense of hope. besides this, nothing else matters. i want my own furniture store. i don't care how i get there or how long. that's my life long dream.

and it's good. dream keeps me alive. so i'll hang in there no matter despite how bad i feel right now.