Wannababybad's Journal

After a long month off because of over-stimming, we will finally get to do the 4th IUI!! This will be the first IUI using injectables (gonal-f) and the Femara together!! I am soooo... hoping that this will be the little extra that gives us our miracle baby!! Although the injections themselves are not that bad..I do feel like a pin-cushion. My belly and my arms are bruised from having bloodwork done, Gonal-f injections and oh...dont forget about the Ovidrel! I guess I am lucky that I dont have that bad of side effects. I have none from the injectables..but boy the Femara is starting to take its toll on me! Every month that goes by (5 months now) the side effects get worse and worse!! I really hope that this will be my last month on the meds...or better yet...I hope its the last month to have to drive back and forth to the RE! I hope that the next time that I go up there its to get a possitive beta or possibly to take a picture of my litlle miracle to show the GREAT nurses there...and let them see what they helped to make happen for us!!!! Oh..how I cant wait until that day!! I am trying to think and stay very posiitve this month..in hopes that I will finally become a Mom this month! SO...tomorrow as I lay on that table at 10:15am with my hubby by my side...I pray that this will be the end of our infertility journey and that we can get on with living our lives the way that we had always planned! I pray that I will look back at this journey, the people that I have met, the time that I have spent worrying and the money that has been drained form my savings and think to myself, "Gee...this was such a learning experience for me and I am glad that even though I will never forget all that I have went through and all the hurt...it was worth it and I will forever be grateful for all this!" I know it sounds crazy..But as I sat in church 2 weeks ago...I was having a really hard time dealing with all this and before I knew it, I had my husbands hand taking him with me to tell God that I was finally ready to go through to the next step...Baptism....I was saved about 6 years ago or so and never followed through with it...I'm not sure why...I just didnt! I also promised God that if he would just give me a child...I would give Him ALL the glory!!...That I would make sure that all those around me knew just what an awesome God He was and how it was Him and only Him that made our dreams of becoming parents come true! I promised that I would then and only then share "Our Journey" will our friends and family about what we had gone through and how God has brought us closer to Him during this journey and how I knew that this was why I had to go through all of this...SO...as I get ready to go to bed tonight..I pray that each and every one of you get to the end of your journey also....and to those of you who's journey has ended just recently..CONGRATS!!