AirS's Journal

Hi,

  I have been out of town for over a week. My Mom and Dad's to visit. My Mom is chronically ill and Dad is stressful. I had the best time I could. I prayed and tried to rest. My Mom understands a bit more than my husband. He came and got me on Saturday to go home. I had a terrible migraine because the barometer pressure dropped very low because of a storm and all the way home I cried and threw up in the car. Since then I have been suffering on and off with not having to be able to be in the light and noise. This is nothing that made the man of house very happy. I don't get them very often but I get tension and sinus headaches and pain so bad sometimes becuase of of my spasms and paing going up my nexk and into my head. It really was bad this week I couldn't read, even look at anything. Nothing seemed to help much but Zanaflex. But of course this didn't last forever. My head is still pounding and am hoping I don't have to go back to my doctor again. I have been putting off my therapy and I have to go back. But I just feel like I am regeritating the same things I write. People could be more understanding. I have no friendships out side my husband. My siblings are too busy, my church friends don't even email or call. My mom is mor ill then me. I tend to forgive her but. It is hard when my Dad told me I am on a vacation everyday and still asks me to do chores he's been told over and over I can't do. I sick of people believeing I love being on SSI. That I watch tv all day long and so on. I tell them I would gladly take the jobs they hate for exchange for taking my pain and my assiciated illnesses. The shutup but still don't understand. I get you look fine? You don't seem ill! I swear I need a removeable body cast or wheel chair to try to get them to to get it. I get so mad. They will neve understand not even my husband.

  Erinn