rene601's Journal

I just want to say, i have only been here for about 2 weeks now, and i have met more ppl, that care and understand, and i also feel this site has saved me in a way, so THANK YOU, Everyone that i have met has made me feel alot better, i can open up with no problems, and i feel that i have had an immdeite connnection with most, and not only do they let me talk , they also dont dam me for the stupid things i do and have done, it really makes a difference that i have ppl that understand, not always agree with me, but they understand. i would consider them as of now in this short period of time that they are best freinds and have been open with me as well as me with them, So thank you , To The Founder of this site, and Thank you for my freinds, i have thanked god every night for this site and my new found freinds.I struggle all the time with my issues but i have found theres noway in hell that im alone. ive told some of my freinds about this site, and asked them to join this site for the issues they struggle with , now if they do , thats great , if they dont, so be it, its their lost, not mine, i put it out there for them, I deal with bad thoughts every day of my life, medicine and the thought of death and how maybe its the answer at times, when now i know for saure its NOT the answer. Because i have no health insurance i cant get the proper treatment in the medical feild i so much deserve, and i cant afford 150.00 a visit to talk to a mental professional, or a doctor that really cares, I have to use the medical family practice thats based on your income, And i have found that they saying " you get what you pay for, so when i pay 15.00 for a visit to my family care, thats just what i get a 15.00 dollar treatment plan, for a 2 minute of being seen by doctor, i love it , when they can look at you and in 2 minutes they know whats wrong with you, and start a treatment plan, wheres the compassion.