There's not a lot about me. I'm kinda shy and very weird. I'm finishing vet tech school and want to continue my education in equine medicine. I've been dx since age 16 but I'm still somewhat in denile about it. I don't like talking to anyone b/c they don't get it. They either think BP is an excuse for being moody or they stop talking to me all together. I have other family w/ BP so that can be helpful, but I need more than 1 person that knows whats up. I'm too scared to go to a support group. This is the 1st time I've actually reached out.
There's not a lot about me. I'm kinda shy and very weird. I'm finishing vet tech school and want to continue my education in equine medicine. I've been dx since age 16 but I'm still somewhat in denile about it. I don't like talking to anyone b/c they don't get it. They either think BP is an excuse for being moody or they stop talking to me all together. I have other family w/ BP so that can be helpful, but I need more than 1 person that knows whats up. I'm too scared to go to a support group. This
"I have often asked myself whether, given the choice, I would choose to have manic-depressive illness. If lithium were not available to me, or didn't work for me, the answer would be a simple no... and it would be an answer laced with terror. But lithium does work for me, and therefore I can afford to pose the question. Strangely enough, I think I would choose to have it. It's complicated... I honestly believe that as a result of it I have felt more things, more deeply; had more experiences, more intensely; loved more, and have been more loved; laughed more often for having cried more often; appreciated more the springs, for all the winters... Depressed, I have crawled on my hands and knees in order to get across a room and have done it for month after month. But normal or manic I have run faster, thought faster, and loved faster than most I know." -- Kay Redfield Jamison
"I have often asked myself whether, given the choice, I would choose to have manic-depressive illness.
September 8, 2009 1:18pm
I feel like crap right now. I got my wisdom teeth puled on Friday & I am in so much fucking pain. My face is all swollen & bruised, I …
August 17, 2009 11:58pm
I hate this time of year. Its when this all started for me. I feel pretty damn depressed right now. This year seems worse than others. I have been so …
June 28, 2009 4:35pm
So sometimes, especially lately, I feel like I need to have a good cry fest. I don't know why but my tear ducts seem like they need to release …
June 18, 2009 12:02pm
So I have my national exam tomorrow to be a certified vet tech and I'm starting to freak out. I haven't been able to study much because …
June 8, 2009 3:12pm
So I just took my only final for this quarter. I think I did ok, but I'm stressing out real bad. It was clinical chemistry. I studied hard for …
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Love you, Littlebird! Have a great Monday!
Hope you Have a better day at work; I know you know that you are there to help families make good decisions about their animals as well as comfort them on their journey. Love ya!
Hey, Littlebird... Your Bigbird loves you! I'm glad that you are acknowledging your 'being-ness' without over-analyzing it (which I always do). Ask for recommendations of a good cry-fest book (Like Where the Red Fern Grows, except you already read it), and get that 'good cry' done! Love you!
I found out when I was 16yr after my g-pa died. I was so angery & depressed. I turned to drugs and self destruction instead of accepting my mom's help. Years later, I'm doing great, but I'm still afraid to talk about who and what I am with others. No one really understands.
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