DID YA THINK I COULDN'T?????
November 2, 2009 5:03am
I got 6 months clean 'n sober today.
Jonesen
6:44am Saturday
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About Me
Jonesen
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About Me
Let's see...my friends think I'm crazy. They're right. I'm a Leo..no excuses..I Rock n' Roll...always will. Known for sudden impulses... could be part of my addictions workin' against me. Oh I've got demons. Not easy goin' by any stretch of the imagination. I like results...was a supervisor at work for the Teamsters until I got hurt on the job. Been goin' through surgeries...reconstruction of my right hand. Not happy with that at all...prolly gonna have a fourth surgery..maybe more..don't know. I'm not real happy about much at the moment..except...I've been sober for a while. Gotta get away from booze n' drugs...It's reakin' havock on me for a long time. Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I shall fear no evil...for thou art with me...sorry...just came to mind..where was I? Oh...Yeah..I'm lookin' ta get off all these bad things that I do so that I can be a free soul again. It's been a hell of a long time since I was clean...back in the Army I guess. So...yeah...I just wanna be sober ta see what it's like again. lol...I here good things about it all the time. That's why I'm here...typin' this thing...instead of drinkin' whiskey and doin' percs...hell...I got em but don't want em..I think God is tellin' me to knock it off before i really can't do a damned thing about it..Don't wanna be in that position ever again...just saw this commercial on tv...Getting drugs can be just as easy as opening your medicine cabinet...well Duhhhhh!!...I can't throw tha crap away though...I got serious pain ta deal with as far as my hand goes...Maybe this doesn't make much sense but I don't want the stuff but need it at the same time. That's all I got at the moment...
Let's see...my friends think I'm crazy. They're right. I'm a Leo..no excuses..I Rock n' Roll...always will. Known for sudden impulses... could be part of my addictions workin' against me. Oh I've got demons. Not easy goin' by any stretch of the imagination. I like results...was a supervisor at work for the Teamsters until I got hurt on the job. Been goin' through surgeries...reconstruction of my right hand. Not happy with that at all...prolly gonna have a fourth surgery..maybe more..don't know. I'm
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Interests
Ridin' my Harley and playin' my guitar. Can't do either...right now...damned hand...like to dance too...wanna be interested in stayin' sober...could be a new hobby...who knows...
Ridin' my Harley and playin' my guitar. Can't do either...right now...damned hand...like to dance too...wanna
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Jonesen gave MissKristy a little love 6:06am
What could we possibly share hun? oh wait..ummmm naaaaa can't write that on here lol let's see...Oh.yeah..…
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Jonesen gave larkhill a good luck wish 5:01am
lol I just wanna wish you luck in Gay Parenting as I see you must have had yet another interesting weekend.…
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Jonesen gave VALIANTESIS1272822324 a hug 3:51am
Hey man...To me doubt = worry = fear, which is what Satan uses to confuse, lie and manipulate with. I…
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I found this site quite by accident looking for S.S.D.I. nightmares that happened to people to try and help them in their effort to obtain disability …
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Just skipped by to check you out. lol lol lol . I even brought you a present. lol Can't open it yet though. It's something that has to be shared. I'll give you three guesses. Hugs Sweetie, Mexx
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I love the insanity comments you made LOL!!! You are hilarious! Hang on for Thanksgiving and keep that good sense of humor! Angela
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greeetings friend hope yur doing well, question for you,,,, can fear be a healthy choice in some bodys life.
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Awwwwwwwwww, I just actually read what you said earlier. I was half asleep when I read it the first time and didn't see the equal signs. Duh. I feel stupid now. lol lol Ownage for sure. Always, Kristy
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I’m With You
lol lol lol. In a tree? Hmmmmmmm, interesting. I wonder if I can still climb a tree. Move over, you're taking up all the room on the branch. lol Loved the video. Love to you, Kristy. Well not to whitty today, am I? lol Off to the hospital. Sigh..... Talk to you soon
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Close Alcoholism
Ya gotta be kiddin' me...my story is an ongoing battle that winds me up in hospitals,detox,rehabs,fights,lost relationships,and the list goes on and on. Stayin' outa jail is certainly a challenge in itself. To me it all amounts to "self sabatoge". I don't know why,but I love to ruin my life with alcohol and drugs. Just to see if I can come out of it with what's left of my brain still intacked. Self destruction is a slippery slope. I have had two seizures in the past and came close to death.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Not Working
- I had a sponser and did the steps at AA to no avail. I drank again apologizing to God the whole time.
- AA Meetings Not Working
- Been to a bunch during hospital inpatient stays and on my own too. More like a bar without booze to me. Some good stories but mostly annoying to me.
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- This takes a HUGE effort that requires me to "stay busy" in the moments of thoughts about using. I am working at this and it's working for me.
- Detox Working / Worked
- I've been taking saunas everyday for an hour and drinking a lot of water. I'm detoxing my body myself.
- Folic Acid Not Working
- Had B shots in different hospitals. Didn't help at all.
- Librium Not Working
- Was given Librium many times in hospitals and rehabs.It helped me feel better for the moment but upon discharge drinking eventually took over.
- Outpatient Treatment Program Not Working
- Been through outpatient treatment at hospitals a few times to no avail. I like to get high to much.
- Sleep Working / Worked
- Sleeping is getting better all the time.
- Swimming Working / Worked
- I am swimming for an hour after taking a sauna everyday. Sometimes I swim at night too. This is good for sleeping too as I tire myself out.
- Willpower Working / Worked
- My willpower is taking over in my situation. I have to work at it but I have more now than I did early on.
Close Prescription Drug Abuse
Well,I like to get high and norco or percocet along with drinking gets me there. I've recently had 3 reconstructive hand surgeries so prescription drugs are easily accessable. Have been on street drugs my adult life but prefer prescription narcotics. My tolerance is at the point now where it takes a mega dose to get me out there. Mixed with whiskey is quite a volital cocktail at best. It amounts to some sort of a "death wish" I've always had. To see how much my body can handle for some reason.
Treatments
- Willpower Working / Worked
- I just refuse to take medication and wont .
