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wizmo 
It is six months today that I lost my one, true love. I have thought about writing a poem,
but have found it hard to do till now. Through tear-filled eyes I have written this:
"Six Months"
"Six months today my Greatest Love did depart,
Shredding my soul and breaking my heart
Never again to gaze upon his beautiful face,
Left all alone in this god-awful space
Love of my family I do enjoy,
But without the main element, I'm merely a decoy
Hiding my sadness so no one can see,
I'm no longer myself, the 'real' me.
That person passed and has gone far away,
Since my "Angel" left that horrible day
Feeling a 'burden' to those I love and adore,
"Take this away!" to God I implore
I fake, I forge, I try to pretend,
But knowing inside the feelings never end
Emptiness, sadness and pain are my life,
Struggling to succumb to the bitterness and strife
My only refuge will to be with him and then,
My soul will heal as I hold him again
And kiss his sweet lips and meet him eye to eye,
Ascending into eternity and the vastness of the sky"
I feel no better at six months than I did from the beginning, as a matter of fact, I find it even harder now. Life will never be the same, until I am with him again.
Comments
Your poem is beautiful. I am so sorry you are still in so much pain. Life will never be the same without our loved ones, but I hope you can find some relief from all the hurt that you are feeling.
JJ888
Six months for you and I too. This is such a beautiful poem and I couldn't have read it at a better time. I have been crying again this past week yet I had thought I was getting better. Thanks for sharing your poem. Love
mantso
It was 6 months for me on the 8th of August. I know exactly how you feel. People say we will get to a new normal, but right now I am so sad I can't even picture any kind of normal. Your poem said everything I am feeling and couldn't get out. Thankyou for sharing that with me. Hang in there and keep in touch.
Hugs Karen
JarenB
Hi Mo I am sorry you are so sad, but those first marks are ever so tough. Your poem is so beautiful it says it all for me. I think it speaks for all of us here. My thoughts and prayers are with you as always. Your friend Christine
Christine26
My Loving "Thanks" to all who have written. I know so many of us are at this point and I need you all to know how my heart hurts for you as well.
Many do ask how I am coping with my "new life" and I look at them rather strangely. "New life"???
I guess I haven't found that yet and maybe never will. My Love to all....Mo
wizmo
Your poem is so beautiful and it says it all. It is 6 weeks since my husband passed away and it feels like it was yesterday. The pain gets bigger and bigger. You are right people want to know how our new life is what new life, we don't have a life at all. Our life has been taken away but I guess they don't know until they are in the same boat like us. I hope you have a great day today. Lots of hugs Linda
lindalun
Mo,
It will be six months for me next month and the anxiety I'm feeling is unbelievable. Your poem, that came right from your heart, hit it right on the head.. Its beautiful! I'm trying like all of us to find our new normals, but its just a sad, sad time for us right now, but we'll get thru it. We will and it will come from our husbands, because love never ends. Much love -- Kim
only1kim
It's been five months for me and I find myself questioning who I am. I wander around the house trying to force myself to do something, anything. I still cry every morning upon waking and have to force myself out of bed and off to work. You are not alone, we are all in this together. Your words are beautiful and oh so true.
FallenAngel
Hi Mo, what a moving and true poem. It's been 8 months for me now and I still wonder how I'm supposed to go on. Work? Taking care of my girls? Keep my house in some kind of running order? Sure, I've been doing those things, but I feel like a robot. I'm trying to find some joy in life and trying to enjoy the time I devote to my kids because some days ago I overheard one of them saying to another that I'm always tired so they shouldn't bother me, and it just broke my heart even more. But I feel like I've been climbing this mountain in a blizzard and I can never get to the top. I can't even see iot yet. But I have to get there...
Sorry for going on like this I hope you have a better day tomorrow. My thoughts are with you.
SilFa
What I wouldn't give to be able to give happiness back to each of us...even if just for a moment! Rich is a very proud man because he chose so well! ;) You're an amazing inspiration to us all and I appreciate you so very much! God bless darlin'....Jenny
MsFletcher
Your poem was so beautiful and true. It was six months for me on August 4. I've been reading these postings for a couple of months but your poem really hit home and made me want to join to tell you that I feel exactly the same way. I am lost without my husband and I don't understand why this has happened to all of us.
tebin