rapidpulse's Journal

Last night was the first time in a few months that I walked through the door and into a Narcotics Anonymous meeting.  It sort of happened by accident.  I'm not sure if something sets me apart from other people, but I feel that something that works for others won't necessarily work for me.  Could I be wrong?  Am I not giving things a chance?

There were a few people there that I recognized and they did me.  I just sat and listened and thought about speaking.  The moment did come were it was an open floor and you could "share your story".  Others spoke, but then there was this long pause and God told me "okay, that's your cue".

Every face turned towards me as I spoke of my recovery.  It was if they were there to verify what I was doing in getting better and staying clean was the right way of doing it.  I could tell that I was on my way, because their smiles were bigger and they nodded in approval of certain things.  I didn't intend to go to the meeting...I was passing the church were they hold it every week, and in passing I started to say I prayer as I always do when I pass the church and realized what night of the week it was and the time.  How could I not got to the meeting and pass it knowing that it was going on?  God timed it perfectly and I thank him for that.

My love to all of you who support me!