Journal

When I was 16 I met this guy, I was in Love with him. One day we were alone at his house and he wanted to have sex. I told him I was not sure. I decided to give it a try and we started. it was hurting me and I told him we needed to stop, i was not ready. He kept on and would not stop. I kept telling him to stop and he just kept going. When he finished he got up and i tryed to get myself together. he took me home and I just cryed and cryed. My mom new something was wrong as soon as i got home. We went to the hospital and went through all the stuff. He went to jail for 5 years. He got out and I was not notified. One night I went home and was getting ready to go out. I did not know that the asshole was in my house and he attacked me. I tryed to fight him off but i couldn't. he was too strong. He started yelling at me and raping me again. His plan was to kill me this time, he was back for revenge. My friend was coming over to pick me up to go out like we had planed. We were really tight so she usually just tapped the door and came in. Well while this was going on she had come. She caught him. He ran towards the back. he told me he would kill me if i told anyone. She kept telling me to go to the hospital and call the police. I finally went 1 day leter. The eveidence was gone, all they had was a witness. they arrested him and he got only 2 years this time cause we had not evidence. it has been one year now and that means he will be out next year. i feel like it is my fault cause i did not get checked out soon enough.