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Casinobogie 
10:41pm, November 12, 2009
I am on my second week of no gambling after my relapse. I felt like sh*t after doing what I did.
I started my abstinence and this time I will stop being so overconfident and take it day by day.
The daily readings of this posts have helped so very much.
I feel good about myself in that last week one night I got the urge to go really bad. Instead of conning myself into going, I conned myself NOT to go.
I guess my biggest challenge is that to finally realize just how much money and resources I have lost and pissed away. All the people I grew up with are all a lot more successful and secure than I am. It really hurts to have lost my brand new house and to be living in this stinking apartment until I can find a way to get back on my feet again.
Every day I awaken and realize that all the allusions of grandeur by gambling is nothing but a crock of sh*t. Granted the economy is getting worse every day, but in the back of my mind there is a glimmer of hope, hope that once my mind is in sync with reality, I WILL find the way to get back on my feet again.
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You will do it. It will take time, but the longer you are gamble free the better life will be. You did the right thing by conning yourself into not going to the casino. I do the same thing. I talk myself out of going when the urges hit. I just stay busy, when I have time on my hands I'll call someone to do something. It helps. Hang in, remember just one day at a time.
Hugs Steph
Steph55