BillyO's Journal

Woke up this morning in the usual +8 pain. Did dishes as wifey-poo had to go to work today. Son and fiance and 2 dogs moved into house from university so house is a mess. No energy to do anything but sit for an hour then sleep for 3. Memories of accident and it's outcome are always on my mind as the pain keeps it close. Impaired driver hit car killing 3 people and I ended with C-6 fracture, pelvic fracture et al and the accompanying halo-traction ended what was a story tale life with wife and kids. Pain feeds depression and vice versa. Almost to end of rope. Family doctor not much use at this point. Everyone says to pull myself up by my boot-straps but do they know how much energy it takes to put on a happy face while inside you are screaming from the pain. I want to let the scream out but no one understands when it comes out what it's all about. I just want to be a normal man again and lead a normal life. Is that too much to ask?