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Lexapro 20 mg is making me bounce off the wall so I am afraid to take anymore I could so easily jump through my Glass Doors the way I am feeling right now. I can't sleep whatsoever and the doctors office is closed for the weekend now what do I do? I just can't win I feel worse not better because I wanna lean up against a wall and bang my head and thats not good at all. I will stop the meds till Monday and walk in there and let him know there is no way I am taking this not even half a dose anymore the meds the Hospital gave me worked alot better then these do and thats Lorazepam 1MG MYL I would not recommend Lexapro to anyone ever!!!!! I am so ready to Scream right now :(
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I tried it everyones way I tried to be strong and even pretended I was getting strong but I am failing I don't want to be here anymore I am too afraid to take my own life but I can feel my heart slowly starting and stopping I can feel my Pain seering me in half and there is no escape.
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I too feel your pain as it is the pain of my own. I am so sad. I am truely realizing what I have lost. Mark was more that I ever realized, he truely worshiped the ground I walked on and with out him, I feel like I am nothing. He knew just when to say things too me when I was being hard on myself. now I have noone. No one tells me I am worth anything. or that I matter, I feel your pain and hope you feel better soon. Feel free to contact me and hopefully we can support each other. I probably need you more than you need me!
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Hon, I want you to know that we all feel this way from time to time. It's ok to feel this way. Sometimes we just scan't be strong when we are dealing with this loss. There have been plenty of times this past year that I begged God to take me too, but as you can see I am still on this journey of grief. Like you I can not take my own life, even though it seems like it is gone. Just remember that we are here for you, and it will get easier in time. I know that is probably hard to believe, but I know from experience. I have come along way since the beginning. And please don't try to hide the grief or suppress it, you need to let the grief out. Or you will end up in worse shape. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Hugs, Pam
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Sweetie, take long deep breaths... inhale, exhale,inhale,exhale.
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I pretend to be strong a lot too and then realize I am only human. Although I can not imagine what you are going through, I was almost there once and held on to hope and the healing hands of time. I wish the same for you and you are in my thoughts and prayers...
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Hearing what you are saying brings me back to the days that I felt exactly the same way you are now. It's only been a few short months for you, sweetie. You are going to feel like this no matter what anyone says or how they try to tell you get through this. It's just part of what you're going to have to go through to get through this. That sounds so cold but I don't mean it to. I know how badly you are hurting and no one can take that pain away from you. All I can tell you is that very, very gradually it does get better, easier to handle the pain. Please keep hang in there and try to believe us when we say it will one day not be such a searing pain. In the meantime, keep writing when you feel this way so we can lift you up and offer our encouragement and support. That will go a long ways to get you through this. It's worked for all of us and it will help you too. It's not easy but it can be done. We all love you and want to help you through this. Hugs and prayers for you, Judi
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We are all going through this together. Yes, there is pain everyday. But, there are good times too. I choose to live for those good times. When I feel like I can't go on, I think of my children and grandchildren. I cannot give up because of them. Remember this, we need you as much as you need us. My thoughts and prayers are with you, Debbie
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Its hard to be alone at times- especially after losing the love of your life- I feel your pain. But tomorrow is a new day and there really are new hopes and posasibilities out there if you allow yourself to be open to them. Remember all the great memories but its okay to make new ones now too. Find joy in something and you will start to heal. My lovinbg prayers are being sent to you.
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I'm so sorry you are in so much pain, I have been there, I used to pray every night, God please please take me I do not want to be here in the morning. I know it hurts sooo much when you loose the love of your life. And you think you can not go on for another day another hour or another minute. I know you do not believe that it will get better in time because in your pain you can not hear me and at night time it is the worst. But things do get better little by little. Please try to get some sleep and we will talk to you tomorrow.
My prayers are with you,
Littlemac
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Thinking of you and praying that things get better for you,I can't say that I know what you're going through but I send you my friendship and hope it will help.Love and hugs. xxx
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Sudden Deaths liek that do play a part in your life, but u have to rememeber who ever passed would want us to live a good,complete life! Please try to find that
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Sorry for your loss, we all grieve differently, try remember the good times, it takes time to heal, but you will, life is but a gift, it needs to be protected.
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Hi Mary,
As you know, I feel the same as you do. I often want God to just take me home to be with Rich, but I know it must not be my time yet. So I forge ahead even though the spirit is never willing. I feel like a burden to my kids which doesn't make things easier, though they say I am not.
I have tried to accept that the sadness and lonliness may never go away. I saw so many old women in the nursing home and all of them look so sad and it made me think that those emotions do not go away, we just somehow learn to cope with them.
Please try to remember that we are all here for you and that each day, we go through these same emotions. You ARE loved!! Peace always, Mo
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Good morning Mary, I hope you slept some last night. we are all thinking of you. Hope you feel a little better this morning and have come out of that dark tunnel of dispair. I do not know if this helps, but what you are feeling is part of the grieving process.
Yous know we all care,
God bless
littlemac
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I am not sure if this is a grieving process but I am sure that its like a sharp knife being guided across my heart because its slowly losing drops of blood and I feel a cold hand gripping it. I know how dramatic that sounds but that's what it feels like. I am making a doctors appointment next week because I can't do this without some help and I only have one anxiety pill left so I will save that till I need it the most. I think I screwed up when I decided to remove my patch I thought wow I am doing good I don't even want one but day 2 was like a heavy Cloud lowered itself upon me shutting out any shimmers of light and suffocating my focus that I had going for me. I am going to quit smoking I am determined to do that but this time under a Doctors care.
I don't need to smell like a ashtray anymore do I ? No cigs ever again this is something I have to do for me.
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Beat this nicotine habit!
2 days smoke free
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Keep going hun,imagine how terrible you'd feel after the cigarette,that helps me alot.Keep busy and believe that you're doing something wonderful for yourself.Hugs xx
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no worries I don't wanna start over again.
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I don't know if you can hear me, but I'm yelling "woo-hoo!!!" that you're still going strong on the quitting. (There's some applause mixed in there, too!) I'm at 7 weeks now, and I gotta tell ya, I feel sooooo much better!
Big hugs!
Judy
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thx Judy
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I take Paxil 20 mg daily and Lorazepam when I need it. I also take Flexeril at night so I can sleep. I only take the lorazepam during the day when I am having an extra hard time.
I worry about you and I pray that your pain is eased to where you can manage and not feel like a basket case. My anniversary is coming up on the 9th of July. I am already feeling anxious and have taken more lorazepam.
I know you will get through this and that it will take time. Please email me and we can chat on one of the IMs.
Vickie
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Those drugs can be 'zoo-ey". I've always found it helpful to discuss these kind of overeactions to medications -- or any other like concerns -- with my psychiatrist who prescribed them. Often, adjustments or changes in medication are needed to find what works best for you. I went through a few changes in my medication types until we found what worked best for me.
al2gethernow
By the way, don't yell at the physician. This is all part of the process of finding out what works for you. And don't stop taking your meds before you see him. If you're really being bothered and can't stand it another minute, call him and ask him about whether or not to go off it. Suddenly stopping taking your meds can really affect you, too, and can sometimes mean that the track toward feeling better may take longer.
al2gethernow
trust me I don't need these its not working it has me bouncing and wide awake an adjustment will not help me because I am having sweats so bad that I feel like pulling my hair out and my head is whooshing inside like 100 people talking to me at once and I can't understand them. Overeation? no sorry this is not the pill for me I feel like I am really gonna lose it worse then before. I have some of my other meds I will take them instead.
SuddenlyAlone
oh btw I am not gonna yell at my doctor why would I he didn't do it on purpose.
SuddenlyAlone
These antidepresants react differently on everyone. Stop taking them and if you really feel like you're having a reaction don't let the holiday stop you from going to the emergency room or call you're doctor's answering service. Sharon
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Call your doctor or pharmacist for advise. I hope you feel better soon. Lay down and meditate or just focus on breathing really slow. Debbie
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He wrote me out a prescription for Lorazepam said the reaction I was having could have made me alot worse and he was sorry. I told him I didn't blame him he was trying to help me and he wrote me out a script for Flexeril for at night. I am feeling alittle better now and alot better then last night I thought I was gonna die as bad as it got. Never in my life had I ever experienced hearing voices that was wacked out and not me at all.
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