Not having a good day. Everything …
Not having a good day. Everything is turning bad around me. I feel "trapped"
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Rac87el 
Well I went to the doctor on the 20th and they told me that I have lost 14.5 lbs. So i'm down to 430 lbs and Im hoping to lose more weight. Also medacaid will pay for my dental work and assistance with my weightloss. So that is my good news.
Now My bad news is my bitch ass worthless dhs caseworker has decided to shut my entire case off including my medacaid! I need my medacaid because I have thousands of dollars worth of medical tests and stuff done every month. And they gave me less than 1 week to appeal it even though nothing has changed on my end so I have to file all this bs and pray to god that they dont cut me off before my medacare kicks in next year. I fucking hate dhs with all of their hoops and then they are so quick to cut u off like they are digging in their own pockets to pay for food and medical supplies. So thats what I get to do tomorrow morning go to dhs and file all this paperwork. God please dont let my medacaid be cut off. So that is really making me depressed and anxious etc. I also found out from my rheum dr that he didnt tell me the truth about my back. He said they couldnt see anything wrong and needed to do a MRI but cant do the MRI until I am only 350lbs. Well I seen the test results that were mailed to me and it shows that I have scoliosis in my back and degenerative disk disease and that its worse than it was last year when they did a MRI on my entire body. So my spine is degenerating faster and everything else is still falling apart and the doctors cant explain still where the massive inflammation is coming from and why my immune system hasnt quieted. My body is fucked up and so is my life atm.
I'm trying not to lose faith, but enough is enough already! I'm just exhausted physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. I just really need for something to go right real soon. So i'm praying that this will allwork itself out soon and nothing else will go wrong. So that is the latest going on with me. I hope u all are well and not having to deal with any of this bs.
Any advice on how to deal with these issues would be great. Thanks.
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Just be sure you have all your latest medical info from all of your providers with you when you go, Hon. (I'm sure you knew that) I am so sorry you have to go through this,...it IS BS, and does not do you one bit of good when you have a lot of medical problems. Good going on the weight, every little bit helps you and I am proud of you! I am very ill yesterday & today, not even dressed--just showered and into clean jammies,--flu hit me bigtime!
Again, I will say a prayer that all goes in your favor, God Bless! Tight hugs and love, Hon! Judy
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Thanks, Judy. I hope u r feeling better today. Big hugs! Rachel
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