serenitysun's Journal

As you all know a lot is going on with me physically...medically....but thats not what I want to share this day.....That is just what it is....The most incredible things have been happening in my life these past weeks....A very old and dear friend and I reconnected....We had lost touch a few years back....(In all truth, the more this disease progressed, the more I pushed those I love away, in fear of upsetting....or hurting them) Anyways.....She came to visit and we shared many tears of joy, laughter....lots of hugs and truth....I realized how very much I miss the friendship that meant so very much to me for so very many years....I promised her I would not push her away ever again....(shame on me) as like my children she also said....look, we have now and I do not want to waste it....My heart is so full....Its amazing the changes this disease puts one thru psychologically....I do believe the docs should address this along with all the physical changes....Its important and I have little doubt that there are many out there who do share similar feelings etc. Its important stuff....

Another really great thing is that My oldest son, Robert, who is in the military phoned to tell me he is coming home for the surgery! He was granted leave....At first I was telling him...honey please do not waste the money to come home....I will be fine....Gawd! He put up with that until he was granted the leave....He called and said....LOOK OLD WOMAN LOL LOL LOL...I am coming home and thats it and thats all....I started crying as I didn't even realize how deeply I wanted him to be with me and his brothers on that day.....Gosh It will be so wonderful to have all three of my boys with me as I prepare to go into surgery! My heart is exploding with joy!!! 

My Middle son and his wife finally decided on a name for my grandson who is due to enter this world and our family in the next couple of weeks....Jonothan Uriah! I love it....I keep pushing my daughterinlaw to have this little bundle of love soon...she says I am tryinggggggggggg....lol and we laugh....

The point of all of this is just this....For as much that is wrong there is so much more right....Many good things are happening and much love is being shared....Many moments are being embraced and always there is much laughter....It seems to me that I am a VERY BLESSED WOMAN....in so many ways....For as much that went a bit wrong this past year....its going to be closing with so much love, family, friends and joy.....A beautiful way to wrap it all up if you ask me....Gosh I cannot believe I will have my three sons and five grandbabies here with me for Christmas! I am so happy....not to mention my three sons here with me as I go into surgery....Yes, my heart is full....Thank you to the powers that be for bringing my friend back into my life and world....an added bonus....and thank you for my constant friend....Karen with which I do not believe I could have gotten thru my darkest times without her love, support and friendship....My soul sister....and yes, thank you to all my friends here who continue to inspire me to no end.....YES, I AM A VERY VERY BLESSED WOMAN....

Wishing everyone a blessed night....Breathe easy.....

Love and Many Blessings, Serenity