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serenitysun 
Hello All, its been awhile since I last shared....Been busy and bothered by appointments and tests....One after the other....seems a never ending battle these days....As far as the cardiologist goes....there seems to be some sort of problem with my arteries that go from my heart to my stomach...Which could be causing my stomach pains and contractions.....My heart is also pretty irregular and weakening....I was suppose to go back to see the cardiologist but cancelled the appointment....Now I am sorry but I was over it and just couldn't or didn't want to hear about anymore problems etc....Lawd it can get overwelming sometimes....
It seems the major growths right now are filling my ovaries and uterus....there are three rather large solid masses....2 to 3 inches and lots of cystic things going on....I am having surgery on November 10th....My ca125 came back elevated and the biopsies were less then what I hoped for but maybe the surgery will take care of at least these problems...
My grandbaby is due on the 9th...lol....Told my daughterinlaw to get busy...lol....As this could be the second time I am in the hospital when a grandbaby was being born....Last time at least I was in the same hospital and they allowed me to go to the maternity ward to welcome him....This time two different hospitals...So of course I am hoping for his arrival a bit sooner....I chose the 7th as my predicition for his birth....I hope I am right....lol....The doc says I will have to stay in the hospital for several days....I am not thrilled about that, especially being as the hospital she wants me in is rather far from home....Its funny how much is going thru my mind and heart these days....
I have another appointment this coming Tuesday and then the pre
-op on Nov. 2nd....lawd....I just really want to get this all over with so I can look forward to the holidays and a new year...May we all have a better one then this....
I will see my pulmulologist the week after surgery so I will find out the rest about the heart results then....One less doctor to see this way....
I am feeling rather tired and a bit fed up....It seems nothing I do makes any real difference at this point....It just seems there is so much to deal with at this time and I feel a bit lost in it all...The docs are all real nice and do take the time to explain etc. but still I seem to get lost in a cloud of confusion about it all....How can so very much be going wrong in such a short amount of time....It can make me crazy when I start questioning....I really don't know how aggressive I will choose to be as this all comes together....A lot of my health issues make sense now but so what....Lawd.....it just doesn't fix any of it....So all I am left to do is accept and trust in the docs for now....Mmmmm.....not always an easy thing to do but necessary at this point....
The weather is still unbearable....in the 90 with humidity factors of 98 - 99%....Lawd its hot....Been staying in an awful lot and looking forward to it breaking...They say this coming week a cold front is expected so we will see temps in the 80s during the day....Ahhhh something to look forward to for sure..... *smiles*
In all truth I am a bit nervous about this surgery....It will be what it will be but somehow I just do not have a good feeling about any of it....Wondering if my body will be strong enough to withstand first the actual surgery and then the recovery....Gawd I am exhausted....
Anyways, its a new day.....My heart is open and I am looking forward to whatever little surprises it may hold....I want to try to see my grandsons this day....spend a bit of time with them....Always helps lift my spirits....I have a sink full of dishes that are screaming my name...lol....So I think I better get busy....Thanks for all your support and encouragement....You all really mean a lot to me as do your friendships...Be well my friends and have a great day....
Love and Many Blessings, Serenity
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My goodness you do have a lot going on My Dear. I am glad you will, hopefully see those grandsons today.
I know that heat is awful, makes one feel so isolated when you can't get out, let's hear for that cool front coming in soon. We are in the middle of beautiful fall colors here in Michigan, wish you were here!
Keep the faith sweetheart and try to keep us posted as often as you can.
My prayers are with you !!
Love,
Leenie
leenabean
Some days I kind of feel like we're like a car with 100,000 miles on it. Many of the parts start needing work- ya know? Doesn't make the car "bad" just showing its age and most of the time it has many more miles to go once he work is done.
Personally, I think your a Porsche- beautiful little speedster that makes folks envy its gorgeous lines but just requires a bit more technical work than most. But man when they move their a beautiful sight..
Enjoy the babies, so excited about the new one almost here!
Tons of hugs... zoom zoom zoom!
Lisa
ldozy1
I saw my granddaughter last Sunday, and it just meant so much to me. She's still young enough to sip on my lap and be read to. Oh how I treasured that day! And I know that your grandchildren will bolster you up, too. Bless their hearts, they will have you and the new baby to visit! I hope your new one comes into this world before you have to go have your surgery. That will help you so much. But if not, just the promise of seeing that newbie later after you've had your surgery, will help carry you through. Sometimes I think that we have to just let go and let God, and know that all will be well in the end. I'd love to give you some of the cold weather we've been having up here. Highs in the 30s and 40s for a few weeks! That would probably be too cold for you! But whatever happens, please know that I'm thinking of you and sending healing prayers your way. ILY! Hugs, Sue
Sue825
It appears as though you have things in order and now is a time to rest. It is difficult to tell what to do next but some how...things work out for us. Sending love and encouragement. I want you to know there is never a day goes by that I don't think of you and how brave & loving you are. Hugs, Ohana
Ohana
I love your ability to say 'enough is enough' and move forward. Every time I read something of yours, I learn something about living. Thank you!
MtnMojo