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serenitysun 
Well the day has come....My Baby Brother will arrive at about noon this day....(He phoned late last night to let me know)....I am not sure how I feel about this....Lots of different emotions fill me as I begin this day and prepare for this physical reunion....17 Years....Lawd....I feel as if he is acting as the resprsentative for the family....Gosh my stomach is rolling as I write this...Not good....I wish I could say its excitement....but it feels more like trepidtion...Not at all a good feeling....I am here trying to put and keep this all in perspective....I want to see him or I would have say no...I love him....Always have....The past really is just that....it doesn't matter and needs to be put to rest once and for all....Again I will say I believe I did this many years ago however, I know he will be all over it....Needing and wanting to make peace....to understand....to heal....I only pray I am strong enough to endure and grant him the time he needs....My Baby Brother....Funny as he is only 4 years younger then myself and yet he will always remain my baby brother...This day will be interesting to say the least....Whew....Be still my heart....So funny but I just realized I thought it had been 27 years....I don't know why....17 - 27 it makes no matter....But it was 1992 that I went back to New York to see my family....Back then I was still in the wheelchair and it was my hope to find things different....to embrace all of them back into my life....I went with an open heart and high hopes....It was a pleasant visit....Not much more I can really say about that and maybe I need to see this visit as just that....No expectations....Just let it come as it does....Live true and make it a pleasant visit....I know it will be the last....So I guess I just answered my own internal question....and yep, its just okay....Come what may.....Prayfully when it is over, it will be a happy memory that we can both carry within our heart....I guess I need to start getting ready....So strange....
Love and Blessings, Serenity
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enjoy your visit with your brother - it is so great that you and him will be spending time together and catching up on 17 years.
Julie2009
LOl Yeah thats a whole lot of catching up....Better crank up the O2 and put on the running shoes...LOL Thanks girl.....
Love and Blessings, Serenity
serenitysun
Hope you have a good visit. I know it not easy always cathing up. have fun.
stacy6179
Expectations can be the strangest things. It 's hard not to have them, but like you said, it's best to just take it as it happens. Because that's really all that any of us can do. I'm praying that your visit will be good and affirmative for both of you. And as Stacy said, remember to have fun! Love & hugs, Sue
Sue825
Well, gal, I'm hoping your reunion yesterday went well and you're enjoying your time with him. You don't mention how long he'll be with you. Enjoy the time, I'll be thinking of you...
mel1959
Well its all over...He left out at 6am this morning....The visit as expected....The emotions....as expected....The reality...as always....Same ole same ole...Still I am glad we shared this time....Now its done....another circle closed....Thank you all for your support and friendships....
Love and Many Blessings, Serenity
serenitysun