Journal

Well this year so far has been hell, first my godmother who was my mother's best friend from child hood died, my stepdaugther's fiance' sister was killed, then they broke in there apartment and then stole his new 2009 truck, my stepdaugther's doctor call her and told her to come to the office because her pap was abnormal and they need to take a piece of her tissue to make sure that her cell don't have cancer cells present, so everyone was upset and impatient for the results, then my sister-in-law called and said that my niece had a seisure and they don't know why so it has been alot of thing we are dealing with then on top of all that today is the 7th year that my mother has been gone and I am really missing her. The year that she died I was turning 41 and on my birthday that year we had a few friends over to celebrate my birthday and my mom was in bed very ill at the time she call me to come and lay by her like I did when I was a little girl when I wanted to talk or she had something to tell me she rubbed the top of my head as to soothe my pain I was feeling at the time she did not want me to worry but I did and was in dienal for a long time during her illiness to the fact that the cancer was not curalb and when she did die I had a hard time accepting that she was not here anymore, now every June 16 I just have a hard time with this date. I know that I still have to live, my mom was not only my mom she was also my best friend and I still really miss her . I am sorry to be just rambling, but I know that I can talk to you all and you all will understand.I have been crying all night and day it is like I can not turn the tears off. Thank You All for listening