Journal Entry for July 29, 2009
July 29, 2009 9:00pm
im in the ER. they let me have my computer.
im here cause i made the mistake of letting one of my docs know i want to cut and she called the cops on …
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mistykitty 
5:31pm, September 30, 2009
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About Me
mistykitty
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About Me
im 19 years old, though much older mentally and much younger emotionally. i have been cutting for almost 5 years now, have BPD and have a hard time making friends because i an extreamly shy. i spent 4 years in high level group homes, and found myself friendless and alone when i left them.this was hard, not only because of the lonelyness, but also because one of my passions is helping those in need and this left me feeling useless.
im 19 years old, though much older mentally and much younger emotionally. i have been cutting for almost 5 years now, have BPD and have a hard time making friends because i an extreamly shy. i spent 4 years in high level group homes, and found myself friendless and alone when i left them.this was hard, not only because of the lonelyness, but also because one of my passions is helping those in need and this left me feeling useless.
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Interests
swimming, animals, art, music, nature, helping others, origami, reading, fantasy books and fantasy.....well, fantasy ANYTHING :)
swimming, animals, art, music, nature, helping others, origami, reading, fantasy books and fantasy.....well,
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straitjacket by Alanis Morissette
July 26, 2009 7:49pm
Something so benign for me construed as cruelty Such a difference between who I am and who you see Conclusions you come to of me routinely incorrect …
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goal to get in shape
July 26, 2009 7:26pm
well, ive finally started exercising. it just walking, but i walk at least 2-4 miles a day! and im trying to watch what i eat. that ones hard cause …
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crying
July 26, 2009 7:12pm
i have started walking to starbucks to use the computer cause it is a 3 mile walk and i need to exercise.
yesterday i was sitting …
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forgiven not forgotten by the corrs
July 25, 2009 5:38pm
All alone, staring on Watching her life go by When her days are grey And her nights are black Different shades of mundane And the one-eyed furry toy …
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Hugbook
I’m With You
Little Love
how are things?
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How are you doing? I hope all is well!
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Chocolate
(((((hugs tight))))
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I am sorry you are feeling so bad at the moment, I hope thing get better for you soon. Hugs xx
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
i started cutting almost 5 years ago . i have been physically, emotionally, and sexually abused. i spent 4 years in grouphomes and still go to the hospital at least mnthly for severe self harm.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- wanted to cut after every group. usually did
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- met some good people. didnt cutt for a full month!
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- see therapist often. she hospitalizes me every month
- Red Marker Somewhat Helpful
- is a good coping skill. i like the feel of the marker.
- Rubber Bands Not Working
- snapped it so hard it cut me.
- Squeezing Ice Not Working
- didnt like the cold
- Talking Not Working
- the only people i have to talk to tell me to shut up and stop complaining. or thy just call the cops.
- Tattoos Somewhat Helpful
- beautiful ladybug and star and moon wiccan symbol on my neck.didnt cut for four weeks sfter i got them!
Close Panic Attacks
Treatments
- Meditation Not Working
- Patience Not Working
- it seems to make things worse when i try wait it out.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- talking to my therapist helps some. the attacks have lessened, but they are still there waiting for me to have a week moment.
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- it helps me calm down somewhat, but only if i take it at the beginning of the panic. and it makes it possible to sleep
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionive been struggling with depression sense i was about 10. it started getting serious when i was13.it started affecting my grades, and my friendships. my family life,which already sucked, got worse. i started getting migraines. then came the SI, but thats another story.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Considering
- it seems to help sometimes, but then ill fall into another bout.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- turns into a mask that just hides my tears
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- helps a lot for a day or two after
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- well, i can sleep.
- Writing Not Working
- i feel like it makes things worse.
Open Family & Friends of Bipolar
my mother is bipolar. she goes into these moods where she wont talk to anyone. not even when i tell her im feeling suicidal.
Open Loneliness
i aged out of a group home after spending 4 years away from home. now that im out i find i have no friends that live close enough for me to see .ever.
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
14 years of physical,emotional abuse. was sexually abused as a child.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- helps a lot
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Reading Working / Worked
- magic!
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Shyness
Treatments
- Pets Working / Worked
- my shyness VANISHES when im with animals!
- Psychotherapy Not Working
Open Migraine Headaches
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