progress not perfection
August 15, 2009 9:47am
I made amends to 2 out of 3 family members. Trying daily to forgive myself and stay positive. Still find myself doing half measures and not …
longhaul247 
5:30am, November 14, 2009
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About Me
longhaul247
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About Me
I've done many jobs with back already hurt but when I hit 40 I no longer could manage to cover my problem. I have a mother and 2 brothers who don't understand me and I don't want their pity anyway. I get rejection at every turn for something no one sees so they think I'm just weak or faking. If they could only live one day in my shoes they wouldn't have another bad word to say. It's hard to stay motivated and positive and not to just give up and quit. I get lonely because I have no one.
I've done many jobs with back already hurt but when I hit 40 I no longer could manage to cover my problem. I have a mother and 2 brothers who don't understand me and I don't want their pity anyway. I get rejection at every turn for something no one sees so they think I'm just weak or faking. If they could only live one day in my shoes they wouldn't have another bad word to say. It's hard to stay motivated and positive and not to just give up and quit. I get lonely because I have no one.
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Interests
Hunting, fishing, camping, motorcycles, gardening, history, nature, festivals, staying sober, celibate, jokes, listening to be a friend, helping others, prayer, meditation, yoga, walking, coffee and conversation, travel, photography, swimming, massages, transcendental sex, music, comedies, car repair, buying and selling on ebay, making love under the moonlight, candlelight dinners, being in love, and family, God and country.
Hunting, fishing, camping, motorcycles, gardening, history, nature, festivals, staying sober, celibate,
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Journal
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good but ( no buts, nobody steals my serenity)
July 26, 2009 9:24am
Today July 26th 2009 i am 2 years sober and i feel good. Its funny that nobody can share in my happiness. I feel better than ever and i'm …
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tired and discouraged
July 18, 2009 8:53am
This week I helped put a friend in a Mental hospital for long term treatment of alcoholism and we fear for his sanity. I went to the same court I …
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The day is long but life is short - Depression
April 27, 2009 9:25am
Life has its challenges for everyone. Most of all I think is to focus on what we need to and not keep looking over the fence thinking the grass is …
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Hugbook
Ray of Sunshine
Hey there, dear friend! Thank you for your friendship. So I am sending you some sunshine so you will have a great day. SO have a great day and a painfree one if possible. Love those kind of days myself. Love, MJ
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Superhero Status
Hey There, This is the former PrincessPi. Due to a stalker I had to change my name so I am sending you a new friend invite. I hope you accept! I would miss you if you did not! Love, MJ
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THANKS SO MUCH I LIKE TO BE FIENDS AND TALK I JUST HOME FROM THE HOSPITAL AND LIKE TO GET TO KNOW YOU BECAUSE WE SOUND SO MUCH ALIKE AND I THINK WE CAN BE REAL GOOD FRIENDS AND CLOSE AND TALK EASY TO EACH OTHER SO PLZZZZ BE MY FRIEND AND TALK TO ME I LIKE TO GET TO KNOW YOU AND YOU CAN GET TO KNOW ME AND MAYBE A FRIENDSHIP CAN BE REALLY CLOSE AND I CAN BE THERE FOR YOU AND YOU FOR ME THAT WOULD BE GREAT I HOPE YOU THANK SO TOO I CARE ABOUT EVERYONE AND YOU TOO I HAVE A BIG HEART AND CARING AND LOVING ...........HUGSSSSSSSSS........RUSTY
Prayer
I saw your hug to texasblues66 and was impressed with it. That is exactly how I feel. I have been in pain 14 years now and told I would be in a wheelchair by now but I NEVER gave up hope and my faith in the Lord and I am still here. I am glad I stuck it out for if I had not, I would have missed meeting the love of my life, my husband, and the joy of buying a home and the joy of sunsets and nature and the gift of every day that the Lord sends my way. I am in pain, but I put my feet on the floor every morning and thank God for another day to be with my husband, to enjoy the world He made and the gift of finding people like you. Keep up your hope and faith and He will be there for you when the pain is bad. It is for me on pain days but knowing that there is a tomorrow that will be better keeps me going. I hope you will become my friend so we can talk and maybe even chat online. I will keep you in my prayers now that I know you are out there. God bless your every step and may He help you enjoy the beauty of the world He has given us. All my love, Pi
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Hi Longhaul
Just wanted to say hi and let you know that I am thinking of you, especially regarding your post on your son. I am confident that it will come good, but in the interim it sucks to have to watch it happen.
Merc
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Support Groups
Close Back Pain
I hurt my back when i was 17 lifting weights. I worked till i was 41 before it caught up with me. I've been on disabilty for a little over 3 years now. I have a local support group that I go to in person but its different than this arena. I just want new friends and support and to be able to express myself with an understanding pal. Thanks.
Treatments
- Flexeril Somewhat Helpful
- Works for me I just have to be careful not to overdue it.
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Yes both heating pad and epsom salts baths work for me. But only to a degree.
- Physical Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- I need to move some or I'll roll up in a ball and die. The key is moderation which I never had as a teenager. Wish someone had been there to warn me of the dangers of overdoing it.
- Relaxation Working / Worked
- I have anger and resentment issues which only flair up my back condition. Their is one source that I will reveal later that always keeps me anxious.
- Stretching Somewhat Helpful
- Again moderation is the key and listen to the body and what your mind and instincts are telling you.
- TENS Not Working
- Tried it. Didn't work at all on me. I guess I have long term damage because I am not a candidate for back surgery either.
Close Families & Friends Of Addicts
I am the only one in my family in recovery. I have 2 brothers who are addicts and my father died of the disease.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Has worked for me but now I'm past that and back to AA meetings where I belong.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- It always helps to talk even if your not talking to the person you have a problem with talk to somebody who understands.
- Writing Working / Worked
- It always helps to write out what you need to say but I would never send that to anyone. Discuss it with a sponsor or even let him look at the letter. Remember nothing is more destructive than the tongue or pen and paper.
- Walking Somewhat Helpful
- Walking just 15 minutes changes your body and mind. It can help you relax and it gets you out of a state of decay. Pace yourself and take it easy. Take breaks and do whats in front of you.
Open Sexual Abuse
to get help to heal and to find someone to help me in canton,ms. area.
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- taking camping trips or meetings out of town gives me fresh perspective and i get a chance to make new friends.
- Music Working / Worked
- helps to just turn it up and zone out into fantasy of a good life.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Yes talk therapy has always helped although i didn't think so at the time but it does as long as its the right person or counselor.
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