sarahnmcg's Journal

I have had to borrow money to feed my son let alone myself & my husband. My fibromyalgia & bipolar disorder have made it impossible to work and we can't make it on my hubby's salary alone.

My car was already repossesd a couple months ago and my grandma loaned us the cash to out right buy a Plymouth Neon. That's right, it's from before Neon became a Dodge vehicle! But the owners kept it in great condition so we got lucky. Now my hubby's SUV is about to be taken, but we don't have any way of getting a new vehicle this time.  My hubby makes too much for public assistance but not enough to live off of.

Then on top of that, my husband has developed an anxiety disorder just like i have where you have panic attacks for no reason that can last for days. We are both extremly moody because of the distress because of our disorders (we are both bipolar, have an anxiety disorder, and etc). We've never fought so much in our 6 years and 7 months of marrige or the erntire time we've known each other fir that matter. I  fear this won't end well and I know he would get our son because I'm jobless, disabled, and recently spent time in a psych ward for being suicidal. They think I was crazy then, just watch what I do when they take my son away from me. My husband talks about leaving all the time. I can't imagine anyone but him putting up with me.

I can't imagine life without Shaun (Hubby) and Nolan (son), but sometimes I think it would be a good idea. I don't know ...