my life with my phobia...
May 1, 2009 8:05pm
my phobia of being away from home ruins my life! , for example my anixety is high at the mo and i am not working not going out actually! …
LILLYLOO 
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About Me
LILLYLOO
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About Me
IM 26 FEMALE FROM DORSET UK, I HAVE BEEN SUFFERING FROM ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS FOR 5 1/2 YEARS. I AM A QUALIFIED BEAUTY THERAPIST.I AM CURRENTLY NOT WORKING AS MY ANIXETY IS TOO BAD AT PRESENT. I LOVE MY CATS AND ENJOY CREATIVE CRAFTS, I LIKE PHOTOGRAPHY, THE INTERNET, FASHION AND SHOPPING , I AM A TYPICAL GIRLS GIRL! I HAVE A FIANCE AND SUPPORTIVE FAMILY.I ALWAYS THOUGHT MY ANIXETY WOULD GO HAVING IT FROM JUST BEFORE MY 21ST B DAY BUT AT 26 I AM STILL SUFFERING AND HAVE TRIED MANY DIFF TREATMENTS AND MEDS.ANYONE WANT TO CHAT PLEASE DO SEND A MESSAGE X
IM 26 FEMALE FROM DORSET UK, I HAVE BEEN SUFFERING FROM ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS FOR 5 1/2 YEARS. I AM A QUALIFIED BEAUTY THERAPIST.I AM CURRENTLY NOT WORKING AS MY ANIXETY IS TOO BAD AT PRESENT. I LOVE MY CATS AND ENJOY CREATIVE CRAFTS, I LIKE PHOTOGRAPHY, THE INTERNET, FASHION AND SHOPPING , I AM A TYPICAL GIRLS GIRL! I HAVE A FIANCE AND SUPPORTIVE FAMILY.I ALWAYS THOUGHT MY ANIXETY WOULD GO HAVING IT FROM JUST BEFORE MY 21ST B DAY BUT AT 26 I AM STILL SUFFERING AND HAVE TRIED MANY DIFF TREATMENTS
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FASHION, PHOTOGRAPHY, CARD MAKING, SHOPPING , PAINTING, INTERNET, BEAUTY THERAPY, AND CATS... I LOVE CATS WE HAVE 7.
FASHION, PHOTOGRAPHY, CARD MAKING, SHOPPING , PAINTING, INTERNET, BEAUTY THERAPY, AND CATS... I LOVE
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30th april 09
April 29, 2009 7:35pm
went to the doctor yesterday,and i have a withdrawal programe for the effexor tablets, i feel more confident with this doctor and its a shame she is …
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29/4/09
April 29, 2009 6:44am
WELL GOT NO SLEEP LAST NIGHT! I WAS AWAKE FOR HOURS, I HAVE BEEN SLEEPING ALOT IN THE DAY MAYBE THAT COULD BE IT?. OFF TO THE DOCTORS TODAY TO SEE …
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not heard of the new drug your going to try?? sometimes names differ here in Australia...? We just have to keep trying until we find what works for us...it's such an individual thing.....which is what makes it so hard to treat.. and is why it takes so long to get the cocktail right... thinking of you....hang in there!! meliixx
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Thanks LillyLoo, right right about the living situation, I think he means well but as I'm so sensitive just now I'm not thinking so rationally and he's taking my upset and pain as being angry at him, so on the defense sometimes. i guess we are both under unbelievable stress and his usual loving and caring self is wearing thin sometimes as I will get upset easily at him and lash out also. He does want me to get better and our relationship to work, but is finding it hard also. I tend to be afraid when he tries to help too as I have little trust in people from the past and have trouble accepting that they care. I guess if I give it a chance, and I've addressed how he's crushing my self esteem with the minor critisisms he makes and how fragile I am, so will give him a chance to be a bit more encouraging. i hope a therapist will be able to address this with him also. I find it hard to do things for myself, like meditation and music, not sure why, I feel guilty as I should be working and can't seem to do much for myself right now. Am a bit afraid of meds as I hear so many long term negative effects they have, with all the paranoia I have I can't bring myself to take them. I think a lot of my friends have that 'pull yourself together' attitude so I tend to keep this to myself when around them. I'm working on my Dad as he's the closest to wanting to care and understand. Like you say, I don't think they realize the extend of what we have, how much you can't control it and how much it interferes with everyday life. It's not until you have it yourself that you are fully aware of the extent of it all. The picture of your cat is a comfort to look at. I truely believe cats can have some sort of six sense in knowing what you are going through and they seem to accept it in any shape or form. Thanks for your support and happy to chat any time.
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Hi there. Of course I'll be your buddy :) DS is a great site, especially the anxiety support group. You're gonna love it...so many caring and understanding people here :)
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Just saying hi with a BIIIG HUG!! =D
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Hi, and a Warm Welcome to DS. I hope you find it helpful here.
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Close Depression
I AM 26 , FEMALE. AND I BEEN SUFFERING ANTIDEPRESSION/ BAD PANIC ATTACKS AND GENERAL ANIXETY FOR 5 AND HALF YEARS.
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- ON IT FOR 4 AND HALF YEARS WORKED BUT MY BODY GOT USED TO IT SO HAD TO COME OFF. IT NEVER CURED MY PANIC ATTACKS I DIDNT EXPECT IT TO BUT I HAD FEWER ATTACKS WHILE ON IT.BUT KEPT ME MORE SANE SO TO SPEAK AND ABLE TO LEAD MORE OF A POSITIVE LIFE ,THINK IT IS THE BEST ONE I HAVE TRIED.ON FOR LONG TIME NO MAJOR SIDE EFFECTS.
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Not Working
- I FOUND THE PERSON I SAW HARD TO FOLLOW SO I AM TRYING A DIFF SUPPORT GROUP/ SESSIOIN JUST BEEN REFERRED
- Dosulepin Not Working
- HAD SIDE EFFECTS HAD TO STOP.
- Effexor Not Working
- I HATE THIS DRUG... THE HEADACHES/ HOT SWEATS/ AND WITHDRAWAL IS BAD. STOPPED THEM AND WAS SO ILL I THOUGHT I WAS DYING. I AM BACK ON THEM AND STARTING A WITHDRAWAL SLOWLEY THIS WEEK, THEY ARE HARD TO COME OFF. I DID NOTICE I DIDNT FEEL SO HUNGRY WHILST ON THEM BUT FELT MORE PANICY..BUT ADVISE IS NEVER DRINK ON THEM EVER!!!!! I WOULDNT FROM WHAT I HAVE READ!.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- TRIED FOR A SHORT WHILE AND I DID FEEL MORE REALXED I TRIED YOGA.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- WE CAN ALL TRY!!!! LOL
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- FELT THIS REALLY HELPED AT THE START OF MY PROBLEMS TO TALK THROUGH WHAT MAY HAVE CAUSED SOME OF MY ANIXETY. WOULD RECCOMEND EVERYONE TO TRY ONE LOT OF SESSIONS AT LEAST. IF THINGS ARE BOTHERING YOU OR YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH SOMETHING DRAMATIC.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- DOES HELP BUT KNOWONE REALLY UNDERSTANDS UNLESS THEY HAVE BEEN THROUGH IT.. MY MUM HAS SO SHE IS MY ROCK.
- Writing Not Working
- SOME DAYS TOO ILL TO WRITE DOWN FEELINGS /TOO DRAINING.
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- HELP STRAIGHT AWAY WITH THE LOW DEPRESSIVE THOUGHTS AND PICKED MY MOOD UP, FELT MORE POSTIVE AND ALIVE BUT I GOT BAD VISION AND FUNNY SENSATIONS IN MY HEAD LIKE NUMBNESS SO HAD TO COME OFF.
Close Anxiety
I HAVE SUFFERED ANXITEY FOR 5 1/2 YEARS AT THE MOMENT IT IS VERY HIGH. TRYING TO STAY CALM AND IN CONTROL IS A NIGHTMARE AT TIME WHEN YOU FEEL SO CHURNED UP AND WORRIED.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- TAKE ONE A DAY THEY ARE GREAT AND REALLY HELP ME WHEN I AM IN A STATE.
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- HELPS IN A PANIC ATTACK
- Dosulepin Not Working
- HAD A REACTION! NEVER TRYING AGAIN.DRY MOUTH TREMORS ANIXETY HOT FLUSHES FEVER....PAINS IN RIGHT SIDE.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- I HAVE SOME CDS I GOT FROM A CURE PANIC ATTACKS PACK AND THEY ARE REALLY RELAXING WHEN I FEEL BAD I SOMETIMES PLAY THEM.
- Zoloft Somewhat Helpful
- JUST HAD FUNNY HEAD PAINS HAD TO STOP THEM. BUT LIFTED MY DEPRESSION ALOT.
- Effexor Not Working
- HORRID AND WITHRAWAL IS NOT FUN. EVEN ON A LOW DOSE. WISH I WAS NEVER PUT ON THEM!.
Open Panic Attacks
HAD MY FIRST PANIC ATTACK ON HOLIDAY 5 1/2 YEARS AGO! SINCE THEN I HAVE SUFFERED FROM DEPRESSION HIGH ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS OVER THIS TIME... YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR GOING TO DIE IT IS HORRIFIC BUT I HAD THEM EVERDAY NOW I GET A BAD ONE MAYBE 3 TIMES A YEAR AFTERWARDS I FEEL LIKE I HAVE BEEN HIT BY A BUS!I GET WHAT I CALL LITTLE ONES EVERY FEW MONTHS.. FOR EXAMPLE OUT SHOPPING HAVE TO GET OUT THE STORE CANT BREATHE ETC..
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- TAKE ONE A DAY AND FEEL THESE ARE THE BEST FOR HIGH ANXIETY AND PANIC ATTACKS.
- Effexor Not Working
- BACK ON THESE DONT THINK THEY HELP PANIC ATTACKS ...INFACT THEY MAKE ME FEEL MORE ANXIOUS. NEED TO COME OFF THEM AS BEEN VERY ILL WITH SIDE EFFECTS.NOT HAPPY WITH THEM.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- CDS CAN REALLY HELP I HAVE SOME FROM CHARLES LINDEN.THE METHOD DIDNT WORK FOR ME THOUGH.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- IT IS ALL IN THE HEAD I KNOW THAT. PLAY THERAPY CDS, DISTRACTION, BREATHING PROPERLY.CAN ALL HELP.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- CBT HELPED ALITTLE TRYING A NEW SESSION.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- I FEEL THESE WORK WITH ANIXETY AND LIFTED MY MOOD ALOT .I HAD FUNNY SENSATIONS IN THE HEAD SO HAD TO COME OFF OF THEM.
Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome
MY SISTER HAS THIS AND HAS HAD SO FOR MANY YEARS.I HAVE SEEN ALOT 1ST HAND OF HOW HARD IT CAN BE.
Open Phobia
i suffer from anixety and panic attacks and depression. i had my first panic attack and break down whilst on holiday, now whenever i go away from home or a short holiday it flares up.. there have been times when i have to turn round and go home, end up in hospital. i fear that i am out of my comfort zone and that i might not ever be able to get home again or i will be so ill ill be trapped away from home.. does this make sense?
